i am asking myself why am i existing in this world? why is it tat i am doing the same one damn fucking thing every day ? I hate myself ~ why ? if i only can turn back time i wouldn't make the same old fucking mistake again. I wouldn't even allow my parents to make the papers to allow this change. How naive i was at that time, i thought things will be the same but i was wrong. First 2 yrs things were the same but as times goes by every thing went chaotic, my things went missing in the house almost everyday. I hate myself for this terrible mistake tat i made and i regret it very much, i am going crazy sooner or later in my mind there is only one thing to do
throw away every thing in my possesion including cds and cosmetic. I am sick of things getting missing and i wish i can die at this minute. God if u can read this msg, i hope u end my life now bring me to hell i dun wish to live on any more i got no more strength, why are u doing this to me to torture me every single day?
