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i am still feeling very emo .. head feel so hurts going to burst soon .. i think i am on the verge of falling into depression .. this time i dun know how long it will take to heal ... just hope .. hope that i will start to forget everything .. everything was just a beautiful dream .. trying very hard to put down the dream end on a alarm clock the dream shatters .. i hope i can delete it away. ^.^ trying very hard to recover soon. Even if i diE today .. i would be more than happy to die xD

sad ~

hi hi i am feeling emo again, why is this kinda thing happening to me? I gave another try in relationships and it failed again... i think it's because i sux too much ,, or perhaps i am not good enough ... my heart is breaking apart again .. i am really really very tired ... i dun know why i just can't stop sobbing .. maybe someday .. some day i will really get over him .. i really dunnoe to know someone is hard to forget some one is even harder .. i realised it 3 yrs ago but i can't stop myself sinking in to another shit ... why is shit always happening ? it hurts so bad .. for a long time i haven't been crying so hard until my head is so pain. Yesterday i didn't sleep well, today is even worst.. i got the worst news .. everything turns out according to the temple's charm ..
better dun go into relationship.. freedom is the best .. ouch .. it really hurtz the sky just split and it fall on me i feel as if i am becoming roti prata .. i am so flaten .. from today onwards ..
I swear i will never never never want to try relationship ever again. I think i will get super drunk on saturday bah .. i dun want to think anymore .. i am so drained why it ended up this way? I dun think we even started .. i am just so foolish to thnk that is going to work.

My tears are bitter .. and my heart is dying ..