my life, my story .. boring.

Went down to acer service centre early in the morning as early as 9 am plus woot it is so huge. lol . well i manage to find my way there .. guess what happen to my letter "u" ? since yesterday till now i also dunnoe wtf happen a piece of stupid glue is stucked to the "u" key LOL -.- eeeeee why like that neh ? i also no idea .. i m so bored and depressed .. after my thing is done i went over to daiso. i bought alot of crap.some are useless crap eye lashes la.. things like that .. lol i even bought nail glue for lin dot. xD i think if i ever die ... lol only my best friend and lin dot would be sad .. ^,^ ppl come and go ..i dun know why is it that there are so many nasty ppl keep commenting abt me and my size, no one likes to be big bone and no one likes to be big size. This phase keep gripping on my heart... "ur figure is not like miss "A" it keep haunting over and over me.. wth .. i just feel damn hurtwhy must that guy gimme this kinda nasty comment no one knows as far as i know after 28/2/09 i won't want to go out with him again anymore .. because i dun wana face him. On the 28 i am planning to check into hotel with lin.staying over night from there .. God i am really feeling depressed, do u know i cried and cried at night to sleep.i just pray if there is a next life ... pls PLS make me look prettier and with a super model figure. I am really sickand tired of being looked down and cast aside .. WHY must this always happen to me? seems to be like there is no one on this world knows how am i feeling. everyone is bz. bzbzbzbz working dating etc etc .. best friend had a bf bz with bf . i dun think she will have time for me other than that she is gaming if she calls me she would just ask mesomethings over the phone that's all.
went to visit man li today.. i miss man li alot i dun know when i will be able to meet the rest of the gang member againlol gang member... nah i am refering to shamimi and pei shi ... the last time we saw each other was 4 yrs ago ?omg time really fly xD ... and i am so damn bored.Bored ! why isn't man li here neh ? :P in this point of timei still have alot of doubts in my mind .. will i be able to go for the diploma course ? how long will i be able to stay in the job ? finally when the hell will i slim down ? i really got no idea . . . i wish i wish and i wish .. i can turn back time when i can choose my ancestors. to be smaller built.. -.- things like that.
ROAR ! i really hate myself, what is it that ppl keep telling me to love myself? i really got no idea what is that isn't love somebody just love? so much things to consider ? i really dunnoe..

" ur figure is not like miss A"

this phase really pierce my heart, i know i dun have a figure. my figure is round. oval fine what ever u name that. this really sucks even if u dun like that person u dun have the right to tell her this. I swear if i have alot alot of money, i will go for liposuction. Things are already bad enough, when u try to do things and it dun work out pouring oil over fire yes i know i am fat very fat dun compare me to other ppl because i am unique.

i hate u !

my world is filled with hate, i hate my supervisor. While i was talking on the phone and i answered i "dunnoe" she react like a tiger jumping over a rabbit pounce at me screaming at me infront of customer and even pushed me. I didn't know about the promotion thing, another work mate call me from another outlet and she just do this to me. wtf .

come on why must u do this to me? she didn't wana communicate with me, ask her things 2 things can happen either 1. she dun answer u, 2. she gives u a black face and frown at u.
if she is the lady boss i won't even bother to work for her.

Grrrr i hate my supervisor she likes to demotivate ppl, she wants to get me out of this job and most of all she likes to pull ppl down. ever see her encourage anyone? no. She is inefficient, incompletant and illeterate. I HATE HER ~