dark side era

Monday, November 22, 2010

ranting post

these few phases kept spinning inside at the back of my head "friends are not suppose to work together." "你那里不爽?” "don't talk like this u are exaggerating things" past few days it has been haunting right beside me.

all these things that u did to me i will not say nor i would reflect it out, yes we are friends but as a friend i do not wish to lose u but yet u have hurt me deep inside. really really really deep it is as good as a knife stabbed deep into the heart and it was bleed to death.

What can i say ? everything u think u are doing it the right thing the right way, i am just someone who always do the things that are wrong. Yes sometimes i do admit that i do the wrong things, but hey i can't relate to u anymore reason ? Because when i told u my intention wasn't unhappy u just said my tone of voice is incorrect. u didn't want to believe me it was a question.

times when i was stressed, told me my bf tells me friends were not suppose to work together it's the truth. The moment i heard that suddenly i feel so sad and it doesn't make sense to me anymore because u were the one who pulled me out of the roots of the comfort zone and now tell me friends are not suppose to work together. what is this man? u are contradicting urself.

too many things happen.. too much already .. i don't even know do i know u well ? or u have just changed to another person ? or do i know u at all ?

Yes i love Loli , i love going to events that doesn't mean that when i say i am broke u tell me that keep buying loli items and such. past 3 mths i had stopped completely buying loli items and such. stop saying all those things to me anymore.

sometimes i think back do u feel how i feel ? do u even have any empathy towards other ppl ?
or do u just simply think about yourself and just start talking w/o thinking about how u are gona hurt people with ur words ?





Friday, November 05, 2010

I am going broke.

Yea, ranting post time. I am broke damn broke no matter what i am still owing ppl money
i really regret switching over to current job why? because every month my $ is always not enough
1st it was my trip to over sea i took a loan with grandma 500 bucks than what another 50 bucks because late of payment to hp bills and i haven't pay the internet bills. omg la.

i went clubbing, i owe my friend $. better still this mth need to see doc i really dunnoe anymore.
wtf doc expenses when the fuck can i stop seeing the damn doc my money is like being sucked by him. sibeh sian i am owing the whole world $.

haiz. from the last job i loose 1000 over dollars. till now everything is still not recovering.
when will my money grow again?