The Dark Side begins . . .

Best ending~ for 2012

2012-01-31T12:22:00.001+08:00

Perhaps I should not even make any attempt ^.^ it is not meant for me ~ ahaha this is so funny why would it even occur to me such thoughts ? ^.^ wake up ur stupid idea joy !! U will be forever alone xD ~~ so stop dreaming unless u marry a robot xD wahaha

In fact last week was crazy ~ everything was moving so fast that I didn't even have time to think ! Ahaha live just need to move on constantly ~

Anyway, made some decisions ... Move on ... Drop those who doesn't deserve my attention and care because they sun worth my time & energy.

Once I was obsessed, paid too much attention and care guess what ~ got injured again ~

New yr visiting

2012-01-30T12:29:00.001+08:00

Went out yesterday, with our own bunch of ppl to chris' house stalked his pictures xD stalk his zermine's wardrobe xD saw vader's video wahaha ! Scandalous xD~~~

I think I ate too full yesterday and can't sleep zzz didn't sleep for the entire night

Xmas eve

2011-12-25T08:48:00.001+08:00

Went out with Vader yesterday, omg he paid for the meal .. He say maybe we should hang out more lol I was saying one day, I want to go bendeemer rd there and get the super spicy chicken wings lol he said next time ask him along lol ... Walking ard in orchard new possession ! Loli parasol in fact this mth I am like broke ? Lol but never the less the sized operation of black alice really impacted me. Hence I bought another parasol and bonnet in remembrance of b.a ... I had a very happy Xmas eve with Vader. Lol one more thing abt him he only remember my name as meow tan lol !!! Wth ~~~

Sunshine or rain lives moves on..

2011-12-19T08:46:00.001+08:00

Past few days was raining, sometimes sunny sometimes keep raining .. I had Been thinking for this past few days... And had msg elk as well asking him to help me to claim back my ayu disc as I really don't wish to see his face anymore. Things that are related to him I do not wish to know as well because I'm really really heart broken.
Incident till now he hasn't even send a SMS/ pm / call nothing .. If he really genuinely say that he is my friend and I think too much. Moreover he said it on kuro's wall that it wasn't his fault and on his own wall he wrote if ppl know him well enough he doesn't give ppl false hopes. Ya ya because of my foolishness happy ? I am stupid enough to hang out with u all this times, worry constantly abt u. All I get was a fling, ya w/o any corner stone I am sure u are able to flirt as much as u like. For now wish you all the best and I won't want to keep any memory of u anymore gona delete u away from my brain. Lives moves on, I know u are god damn selfish u won't care abt ppl ard u. U will only care abt urself. Nothing abt urself eh I dun need this kind of friend.

Fail to die ~ I am still awake

2011-12-17T03:05:00.001+08:00

Went home drink another 5 bottle of gaba nite and still awake .. Played audition .. Still not happy at all. Yea no one say it is his fault anyway not his fault too .. It is just that he is too selfish. He never think abt me he never care at all I die my problem that's all. Suddenly I realized man is so scary and so selfish ... They dun care how u feel ... They just indulged the attention u gave them endlessly .. If there is someone able to reformat my brain ~ pls reformat it now .. I don't want to remember anything abt him

It just hurts so much

2011-12-16T08:06:00.001+08:00

I went home took 5 bottle of sleeping potion, and what ? I am still here writing nonsense why am I still here yea I know he doesn't care at all he won't care heart really ache.

Never forget today ..

2011-12-14T21:59:00.001+08:00

Just abt to clarify some stuff guess what don't even need to ask he just bring his gf there and ask me go where tmd win lor no nid to ask. Epic win dun bother to ask dun want to talk to him and I won't mag him anymore

First time in history

2011-12-10T16:14:00.001+08:00

First time wear Loli at home dropping tears. I feel emotionally unstable despite I am going to a friend's wedding. Dunnoe even Loli for now doesnt make me happy anymore. Anyway I should have known it earlier, he calls me because he is bored. Probably ppl has new ppl to talk to hang out with ler ... Damn sad. Tmd make up smudged le T.T

haiz

2011-12-06T00:55:00.002+08:00

when it is suppose to be a beautiful event and it ended up a shit event ?
just why am i trying so hard, I ended up crying that night.
a simple wish to make everyone happy, B day girl happy but
i was so damn wrong.. it ended up in qurrals. .. . .

everything just turn into dust now.

Sigh ~

headache day

2011-11-08T12:40:00.002+08:00

rushing for work, letters deadlines.. even thou i should be relaxed after a public holiday.. hell no.

Friday, sat, sun, Mon i didn't really sleep well. I slept for abt 4 - 5 hrs and woke up everyday at 6 after that i just couldn't fall asleep..

Yes, i am stressed, i know why the reason.. because a friend of mine got into trouble .. I felt v helpless at times .. why can't i help him... why is this happening.. at times i even question myself

why did i not be the bad egg to stop him and her together ? if they wasn't been together than he wouldn't be implicated into this shit..

yes, i rather be the bad egg, anyway Joy is famous for being a bad egg always ..

B is on MC today & tml, finally not so jialat during work. As she is not ard, and no one keep asking me to do this do that at least i have peace :D i can munch my potato chips in peace and no one will come and fight with me on the potato chips :)

Headache from the beginning of the day till now >.< due to little sleep, I was chioning my AFA head dress and it is done now waiting for coming sat ~

depressed ..

2011-09-21T22:44:00.004+08:00

sometimes i asked myself why am i trying so hard? At the end of the day, i am still left with nothing .. i mean comeon ... wtf ? I sacrfised my time with family .. i dun even find space to breath anymore? .. Yes. boss is nice to me i agree but B is not. everytime u see her all the bad memories starts to haunts u .. -.- .. seriously ..

today Boss' hubby ask me was i sick on the phone, why am i talking so softly ?

i replied him .. it is because i did something wrong hence when the phone rang, i thought she called me to scold me..

Tim says.. it is normal de la.. working life is like that no matter where u work just that .. u learn from the mistakes.. even if i am not working for my current boss the next time i go other place i will face the same problem .. Tim, sometimes it is not that i wish to say but ur wife really has mood swing.. and the more she scold me the more song she feels that's what i think nah .. hur hur but yes i agree with u go where also the same sometimes buay gum with colleagues but do u know my pain ?

Made a new wish.. i wish to leave this place .. when i have a chance, perhaps next year or so..

seems to be like .. the only thing holding me back will be my boss.. yes she can be the nicest boss but at the same time monster killer.. zzz she cannot tolorate any single mistakes..

stress. . .. stress ... to work under her.. omg ...

Btw haru anniversary party is coming, i hope she receives my email and let me join in the competition ? lol ...

:(

2011-05-19T09:21:00.002+08:00

there is no such things as friends in this world. One by one fell against me, where is my true friend?
I guess in the end i dun really have a true friend to me zzzz she restrict me, psyco me, over and over again tries to come and control me. is this what friend is all about ?

Great.

sigh

2011-05-12T09:12:00.000+08:00

Little me within me came out and shake my confidence lvl again .. the inner voice is the same feeling that holds me back 7 years ago.. when will i be able to shake off that "little me" ?
sigh i wish and i wish i had never work in the same company .. regretted sort of because things just turn worst than i expected? when u are happily outside she just send u sms. yes nothing wrong with smsing me but the order came direct from her instead of boss ?

that aside .. i never know i have so many Capital B in my life . ahahha.. what to do ? that's life ..
if yesterday was a dream than please wake me up from this nightmare. seriously i am tired and i dun wish to continue in that dream.

for sure of one thing i never enjoy working wif her .

my thoughts

2011-03-30T12:35:00.001+08:00

Seriously, if u are thinking that you wants to make decision with it all the time than why bother to consult me? dun bother just execute ur damn plans. anyway i seriously do not wish to spend my bday with u at all .

competition blues

2011-03-23T19:15:00.002+08:00

Competiting in my asian fashion, want to win badly why is it so ?
because i need that dress to fight for that dress I will try very hard to gain
votes from the other friends or even strangers.

If i get the dress i will be able to provide the dress to my friend ..... and photoshoot.

so this is how it feels..

2011-02-09T13:13:00.003+08:00

the heart that kana stab right in and it shattered into pieces that u won't be able to pick up
it became dust, heart just bleed non stop a sign of betrayal.

Nothing will be able to heal me anymore, it is at the end of the tunnel.
I wish i can get out of here,

now Warren is my only hope giving me a new life.

i need to leave, too many things happened here.

i do not want to stay.

I cried and puke as if my hammie died. R.I.P Joy Lee you are dead long time ago.

Once upon a time u were hurt by the moon

now ur best friend do this to u screaming at u

no matter how good u treat them

it just go down to the drain.

A very bad day

2011-01-31T21:06:00.002+08:00

I hate this world i hate hate hate i wish i could just die straight away ! why must i have this kind of friend ? keep being so negative everyday, worrying abt how ppl look how ppl think.

laughing at other ppl.

I really really really hate, hate my family ~ HATE ..

i dun know myself any more i think i am going to collaspe any time ~ i dun know ~

on the verge of madness.

Are u really my friend?

2011-01-31T18:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder ~ are u my friend in the first place ?~

it seems to be like the longer i know the more i feel u are another

complete stranger to me. The same person over the years yet changes

in your characteristic, you no longer cares about how others feel

and have no more compassion towards your closest friend.

Are u really my friend? or I had made a mistake for taking you as my friend?

or you are not my friend at all.

Arn't all friends suppose to share sorrows and pain together ?
but you just seems to be like making use of me, one fine day i saw
your true colour. You are no longer my friend, u source for ppl who
are intresting to be with and dump me aside. I doubt you can remember
how we became friends, the process now you tell me to get lost and ignore
me in your OTHER friend's prescence. Had i ever treated you that way ?

I will erase you from my head and will never remember you as my friend any more.
you just want people to hang out with you and you don't want to know what the other
party is facing. You just think abour Yourself that's all III MMEMEMEME
what about "friend" ? no you just make use of her at your own convience.

Now i know i have no value for you to make use of me anymore.

I just HATE HATE everyone in this world.
HATE.

u used to tell me, it takes a lot of effort to hate a person
no now it is effortless to hate you.

you sucks, you are no different from those morrons out there.

why is it always coming back to bug me?

2010-12-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

I don't know ever since when that phase kept spinning ard at the back of my head..

I can't remember when it started but i rememberer how it started.

this bloody phase that i will never forget .. until now..

"friends are not suppose to work together."

this phase just hurt me so much over and over again each time that things that doesn't goes well

in the work area.. this phase just pops out ..

I can't take it i just broke down and cried today in the office.

ranting post

2010-11-22T22:26:00.003+08:00

these few phases kept spinning inside at the back of my head "friends are not suppose to work together." "你那里不爽？” "don't talk like this u are exaggerating things" past few days it has been haunting right beside me.

all these things that u did to me i will not say nor i would reflect it out, yes we are friends but as a friend i do not wish to lose u but yet u have hurt me deep inside. really really really deep it is as good as a knife stabbed deep into the heart and it was bleed to death.

What can i say ? everything u think u are doing it the right thing the right way, i am just someone who always do the things that are wrong. Yes sometimes i do admit that i do the wrong things, but hey i can't relate to u anymore reason ? Because when i told u my intention wasn't unhappy u just said my tone of voice is incorrect. u didn't want to believe me it was a question.

times when i was stressed, told me my bf tells me friends were not suppose to work together it's the truth. The moment i heard that suddenly i feel so sad and it doesn't make sense to me anymore because u were the one who pulled me out of the roots of the comfort zone and now tell me friends are not suppose to work together. what is this man? u are contradicting urself.

too many things happen.. too much already .. i don't even know do i know u well ? or u have just changed to another person ? or do i know u at all ?

Yes i love Loli , i love going to events that doesn't mean that when i say i am broke u tell me that keep buying loli items and such. past 3 mths i had stopped completely buying loli items and such. stop saying all those things to me anymore.

sometimes i think back do u feel how i feel ? do u even have any empathy towards other ppl ?

or do u just simply think about yourself and just start talking w/o thinking about how u are gona hurt people with ur words ?

I am going broke.

2010-11-05T21:53:00.002+08:00

Yea, ranting post time. I am broke damn broke no matter what i am still owing ppl money

i really regret switching over to current job why? because every month my $ is always not enough

1st it was my trip to over sea i took a loan with grandma 500 bucks than what another 50 bucks because late of payment to hp bills and i haven't pay the internet bills. omg la.

i went clubbing, i owe my friend $. better still this mth need to see doc i really dunnoe anymore.

wtf doc expenses when the fuck can i stop seeing the damn doc my money is like being sucked by him. sibeh sian i am owing the whole world $.

haiz. from the last job i loose 1000 over dollars. till now everything is still not recovering.

when will my money grow again?

sian sian sian

2010-09-22T23:32:00.002+08:00

some rdm thoughts in my head today, have all my friends in my life changed?

or is it because joy is extreamly nice nice to make use? or are u really treating me as a friend?

for a while i thought i could really make friends outside but looks like i was damn wrong

ppl make use of me, be it in games , external events they just find that whenever they need help

i would be obliged to help them. why is it so ? because i look like a trustworthy person and u can bully me?

come on i am a person, i have feelings u think u want to throw me aside cast me away and that's it.

let me tell u, u are so wrong because u loose me as a friend.

Why ? i treat u with respect and everything and u just want to chuck it aside. u want to turn ur face away from me than turn away ... fine don't come and find me for help because in my heart u are already those kind of person who will only come to me when u need help when u dun need help u will put me aside u can even don't talk to me.

dun expect me to ask u out anymore because u fly me aeroplane most of the time u can might as well be a pilot.

urgh stress

2010-08-25T22:57:00.002+08:00

damn it i never realised current company have so much stress.. ahaha it's ok i must remain positive so that i have the motivation to go work. yes it is stress now what? stress from school
wtf i have 4 project and 1 final project ~ WTF when do i have the time to go and write them ?!
omg omg omg i am dying soon le la 9th day on work.. things are starting to go on track
well hopefully ~ i can stay long in this job just that plenty of things i gotta becareful of
check my work over and over again to ensure i get the correct things done ~

sigh stress ~

sob sob

2010-08-19T22:53:00.002+08:00

started work 3 days .. my thoughts monsterous.. never ending.. i filed alot of docs. until i want to cry .. went for exam today. i wana cry from after work but i didn't i questioned myself alot of times.. have i made the correct choice going over to Lisa side? because to me from what i see is
i am more of a hinderance than help to Lisa.. i dunnoe .. i might get what i wanted .. an office job
but still i don't know what i want. I know this is a good opputunity but haiz..
yes look at it this way Boss is nice but things is like overloaded .. i am stressed and at the same time depressed.. 1. i can't see my family members.. 2. i can't do alot of things ..
but if i dun stay there and finish my things i will never gona finish it on time ..
I am very stressed.. VERY.. omg can God pls help me gimme wisdom?

Evelyn knows that i quitted retail line.. she popped a question in my head.. u are not getting any younger.. think abt ur future.. what kind of life do u want? if u dun wana work in the retail line anymore than why are u taking up this course? and is office really what u wanted ? because it is a really different enviroment ..

Let me have a different taste of enviroment for a while.. ever since ITE till now i was actively looking for an office admin type of job but no one wants me to work for them..
now i have the chance and boss is kind enough to let me learn in her company she even wants to bring me along for company trip to thailand..

mixed feeling`

2010-08-15T18:32:00.002+08:00

The feeling i had today when i am leaving this company was like the senerio is just like sebastian telling ciel ~ ehh those are the beautiful memories for u .. ciel replied those are beautiful..
for the last time .. i am ending what i was supposed to do everyday .. i know in my heart after today i won't have to go back to funan anymore.. Good bye funan .. good bye to those whom i see everyday .. today will be the last yea.. for the past 7 yrs so many things happened in the company .. i met alot of new ppl .. alot of nasty colledgues as well

4 yrs in funan i met ppl who taught me alot of things .. 4 yrs is not short neither it is long ..
but .. yea 4 yrs .. experiance alot of thing.. it became part of me every morning there would be
coffee .. and bread .. and everything .. x.x UrGH i hate it .. the memories .. haiz ..

memories are nice but they are memories esp the Bishan memories .. those are the really memorable ones ..

part of me wants to leave the company .. part of me refused to leave the company..
wtf .. why am i so mixed .. but for sure i dun wana go back because i dun wana spoil the
nice memories abt the place i used to work in..

i feel very sad .. for no reason haiz .

days are getting nearer and nearer

2010-08-08T23:31:00.002+08:00

Alright, i have tender not serving my notice what's next? i am going to go missing in action on 16th

i don't care wtf is going on. 1. i am sick of this place . 2. i am really really sick of this place 3. i am fucking sick of this place _l_ this time it will not fail because if i fail and back fire

2 person is gona kill me. 1st would be Jill 2nd person would be Joanne x.x omg la

the 2 Js and i am the 3rd J - Joy x.x

well ~ these few days i don't have mood to work there anymore. Joanne and Jill said the same thing eh dun give a shit might as well don't go to work and start directly at Jill's office.. i can't reason is because .. i already promised manager .. that no matter what i will finish 15 of this mth ..

after 15 my conscience is clear because i already had told her wth is going on..

x.x i am feeling damn stress reason is because alot of things going thru my head .. now the thing is not abt to quit or not to quit . The thing now is .. am i able to fit into Jill's company ? and am i able to do well .. i have high expectation of myself it is not am i able to survive but am i able to do the job well? x.x because of this alot of times i have this stupid idea of dropping sch ..

i can't ~ if i were going back to the sch again .. next time .. which i have no idea (IF) than i would have to pay 3k instead of 300 bucks x.x as a penalty .. wth loh ..

HAIZ i dunnoe anymore le .. God pls save me ~ T.t

Happiest day of my life

2010-08-06T23:37:00.005+08:00

Life was never so happy ^.^ i had never felt so happy before ~ i told Wendy abt working w/o giving notice ~ some ppl say penalty 1 mth salary so.. i said .. i didn't feel like working for this company anymore because i feel very upset.

Times and times again too many time infact, i have been pushed by mad woman kicked ~

scolded for no reason. i had it enough from the first day of work she was there like a step mother

keep scolding me. The first time i will never forget ~ for the whole of one week i had depression

and hair loss she kept making me feel that i was so useless ~ when the crowd arrived long queues formed she will tell me to step out and clear cups instead of asking me to learn how to deal with the queue. Initially i thought i would continue to be like this for the rest of my life in this job.

she kept scolding me because she is jealous when i talked to Mr marvin tan our ex manager

in fact i told him pls xfer me to other places like toa payoh la i really don't want to work here any more ~ i cried when i requested for transfer.

things for a while i thought got better but i was wrong beginning of this year ard March ? i am not sure because it was a while back ~ while she was working overtime .. i answer the phone another colledgue asked me ehh do u know there is this this this promotion than i said ehh i dunnoe orh after than she said on the phone oo u muz know le ok ? coz today start le.

Mad woman instantly came running behind me grab the phone away from me tell me what u shit u don't know? DIDN'T i tell u ? than she Pushed me away Very hard because i was crying infront of the counter .. I won't forget that day she challanged me Go and tell Wendy la.

yes i did had my revanged i went to tell Wendy ~ i told her what happen i cried and cried ..

it didn't help much even if she tell her to change but that is part of her already so yes i was being pushed.

so for the next few mths everything is peaceful i thought o how good it is .. no i was wrong

some body back stab me behind my back . yes told her that i over cooked the eggs and when she saw me over boil eggs that day yes that faithful sat 31/7/10 she pushed me again.

this time .. i told myself.. yayaya Joy Lee this would be the last time u are gona be pushed u are not gona be pushed again by her ever.

I got an Job offer , interesting boss and the interview was like 5 mins? and i got hired .

i was battling weather to give 1 mth notice anot but the new boss asked me 2 weeks to settle ur thing is it ok? because i am shortage of man power xD.

why i am so happy today ? It is because i am freed from that demon at my work place ,

i do not need to face her anymore.. and I HATE HER hahaha..

apart from the last time i got my current job this time is the 2nd time i felt so happy.

damn u

2010-08-02T12:48:00.002+08:00

DAMN U , fk sia if u dun wana say sry dun say it u sound ultra fake . pls go and die thank u

i have quit all the related ysl club shit and shit blah blah -.-

damn u damn u dun pick up the call no sms nothing o i see because i am not pretty so

u treat ur friend this way ? i see ur true colour now so u and the other males outside the world

is the same no difference

like i care ?

fking kido

2010-08-02T09:01:00.002+08:00

sat, went out with the hime sama i can't go to B.A outing the teh parteh wth because all the leave spammed -.- -__- yea there goes my tea parteh well what ever the case i still manage to catch up with the lovely lolis guess what .. after we had the dinner i suggest taking neo prints ..

and there all the major shit happen.. first of all angie and the other hime took the neo prints

either their face kana cut off half / their face disappear !! haha.. nvm .. so we took the other machine .. the result was perfect :D after the pics were distributed the rest were saying that it was late and all rushing home. Miao and i were like hey let's take one more time and Miao actually agreed :X so that's where the major shit begin while we were taking pic there is a bunch of freaking kiddo at the side of another machine playing , at first i thought they just accidentally throw the bottle cap and hit my skirt so it was still not so bad we continue decorating the pic etc ,, the kiddo outside the machine threw in the 2nd time the bottle cap so i thought urgh they were playful accidents again well *shugs* continue drawing .. Finally last staw came one of the fking kiddo just threw in the whole bottle into the machine commenting hey stupid bitch u wear until like that just to take neo print , the 2 cute cute one take what neo print ?

LAST STRAW F*** u kiddo , i finish deco i threw the pen i went out SCREAM at them ^.^

yes u never read it wrong i went out to scream at them _#*#%&)@#(#_@$

all those 3 words 4 words 5 words hokkien language because in the first place they did that to me too. if they dare to do anything to be i can't think any more at that moment i would have just bash them up i seriously do not care who the f*** are u . Do not provoke me in the first place, because Joy is not in a good mood.

Freaking early in the morning 4 plus abt 5

wake up just to pack the cosmatic items ,

Lolita items for later use in the end the person

who requested me to help him for make up

flew me airplane damn u -.-

before i went home i was being pushed by mad woman at work place

manager saw wtf was going on i do not know if she did talk to her

one day when it is my last straw i will throw my apron

tell this in her face DAMN u fucker u think this job very nice ah

and will not report to work any more hack if they want to deduct my money

because i had it enough so epic 3 things happen in a row yea.

kiddo's case was the most furious things that ever happen so far.

I'm outta my mind today

2010-07-24T23:32:00.003+08:00

yea as the title meantion .. i am on my max cap outta my mind even challenged a uncle to go and complain me. reason why ? because i didn't even do any shit to agitate him the moment he sees me

he just nag and nag and nag saying that i didn't see him in the queue .Wtf i mean the bloody damn queue is so long and u are day dreaming along the line not queueing how would i know the next thing i know was another person standing infront of me and by the time i serve him he start to nag nag nag nag . At first i tried to ignore him and smile at him after a while he start to NAG EVEN MORE. fk it and say why so slow and things like that nvm the best thing is he said that i am so big, fat and he dun wish to see my face . execuse me ? does fat / big / fat arse have anything to do with customer service at counter front ? I got so pissed and i say Ehh uncle no nid to wait no nid to queue ah ? serve u only la ? than he say oo i dunnoe DAMN him i tell u DAMN HIM than he say u dun be rude i know ur boss , i got really pissed to the max le OK LOR PLS GO AHEAD AND COMPLAIN ME go LA -.- like i care ? if one day i got fired i would be so happy why ? because i already loose intrest in this job too many disappointment too many times and things that happen no one is there to help me in the work. Do i need to say more?

yea looking forward to YSL's K session with miao and everyone else. well in a way something sux not ysl but things in life ... yea.. can't write much here. hahhaa

ppl just love to make use of me , when i am useless they just throw me aside fail to appreciate me learnt my lesson the hard way. Got use come to me no use just turn their back against me fine

from now on Joy will not be the nice miss joy again she will turn into a devil.

she will not be soft hearted towards certain things anymore, call me a person who doesn't care abt other ppl's feeling than does others care abt how i feel ? nope. they just hurt me even more

i just wish to isolate myself. . i dun really know what i am doing already i am lost i am no longer myself sometimes because i just want to please everyone thinking that things will just be the way as it is but i am damn damn wrong T.T i end up being sucked dried like a piece of salted fish hanging in the air.

Miao asked me to let go of all those things i can't i wish i can but i can't part of me hatred is boiling and awakening i am going to become a very terrible person soon. I thought i could let go

but hell no. it is so hard until, i feel like chopping that person head off you know ?

ppl around me look at my status, how much education i have am i attached am i rich ?

does that matter ? when they found out that i do not have O lvl for certain ppl

they just look down at me. Fine but i can do some other things that u can't do

hahah .. some just find me for the sake of the things i can do and after that o game over

leave me aside again ..

hahhhaa life suxs i think i write too much today. .

New look !

2010-07-22T11:51:00.002+08:00

hey hey !!! new Look new feature :D this is the new beginning of the blog xD

past = past tense .. :P gtg out soon mom is calling for me asking me to bring down the bloody box

xD hhaha

be back later :P

Feeling bitter, damn bitter

2010-06-08T00:28:00.002+08:00

let me rewind the story back to last year cosfest.. and u will know why am i feeling damn bitter.

The story goes like this .. i had a close friend her name is adaline i knew her since K2 till now

i wanted to go to cosfest so i went around asking people to go with me be it strangers / friends

so adaline said she would come for BOTH days, she went with me day 1 and we left early as we were leaving she told me that she would appear on day 2

guess what day 2 she flew me airplane.. if she don't feel like coming at least don't keep me waiting for her sms things like that. I called her in the end asking her weather she is coming a not upon knowing that her JAPANESE gal pal couldn't make it to cosfest she herself told me that she do not wish to come as well. fk it i went enjoying cosfest with luna and amanda - that was the first time she pissed me off

2nd time - i asked adaline to go for toy con she told me she would go with me and Luna to toy con

guess what that week itself i call her she told me she is going with her JAPANESE girl pal.

would not go with me .

alright i am pissed.

3rd TIME - i wanted to do the first Lolita photoshoot i asked her if she is intrested to come along as i had said it previously during cosfest (june period) i would organise one she said she want to come. sometime during november she asked me again and i told her the details and etc suddenly she told me that she had a bf who is a photographer which i think is a good thing at that point of time i didn't know any photographer friend and things like that so i told her pls bring her bf to the shoot. guess what 2 week before my photoshoot she sms me things like that OOoo my bf says the timing for ur shoot is not good . bloody hell 10 am is not good for shooting than when is the best time for shoot? than i say no the timing i will stick to the plan next thing her bf is like shit trying to tell me fort canning is not good trying to shift me and the other Lolitas to studio

the thing is since when u go to other ppl's shoot u can change the time and date and venue ?

from there and then on i refuse to talk to her she changed her hp didn't bother to inform me until some shit she need to find out from me than say oh this is my hp no. i think infact i am the last one to know in her list of friends because i am not important to her.

YESTERDAY - she sms me suddenly telling me that she found out that there is EOY which i didn't asked her to go last year she wasn't aware of it until she found out from someone else.

keep bugging me that she want to join me i said i dunnoe if she is able to join us guess wth she wrote in sms? didn't u are some how the leader of the group . Immediately i wrote back

i am not what ever leader in the group i am no one i just form a group of Lolita that's all

she asked me again are u going to cosplay there ? how many zillion of times hella times must i say LOLITA is NOT COSPLAY u blind or what?! u NB . seriously i am damn pissed le nvm ..

i really couldn't take it le .. i wrote this in the sms , " u need me than u find me , ask ur friend to go with u " she replied me her friend went back to jp. than i wrote ask ur bf to go with u

she replied again my bf is going with me he will be my photog u need ?

ha hahaha .. HAHA next thing i replied her no i don't need any more photog. she asked me

why am i so nasty to her am i alright ? i wrote this striaght into her face

ask urself the other time i call u and msg u , Oh my friend is going to event with me my bf this and that now u want to go event go with ur bf / friend u got no one to go with u than u come and find me.

she just wrote i am speechless , i shouldn't say that i am sorry.

does sorry cure ? no. i am seriosly disappointed with her .

MAJOR ARSE HOLE u NB NB NB NB NB

* NB stands for NAh BEH*

rebellious me

2009-11-27T11:54:00.002+08:00

hi hi everyone ! seems to be like this blog is dead muwahahaa damn bz don't even have time to keep track up date wth is going on ~

Early in the morning , while i was in msn chatting and disturbing Ryu manager rang me
" Who is the singer of Umbrella?" i answered "rihanna" " oh are u sure u are gona sing that song? it's very hard can u manage the song a not?" <---- this phase really pissed me off
pls do not doubt me when i said certain things i will do it than let me do it instead of doubting my ability of perform. -.- anyway i know she hates me , i hate her to the core too. Used to be able to talk to her but no longer able to talk to her anymore because i know that this person cannot be trusted she will stab u from front back side and butt stab u all the way in until u die. She is those kinda person who will care only if u have the useable VALUE in her eyes, if u are a junkie like me she will just trash u aside. alright since she behaves and give me shit i will leave this company no matter what after chinese new year. By the time it is at March i should be able to finish notice and go to work in another company.

For the time being now i will concentrate on the Umbrella song show her that i can perform things like that it's just that she shove me away and for that stupid area manager, pls there is really this song name umbrella if she have never heard it pls google it and stop telling me that i lie to her.

I am rebelling against the whole world now , this place is not for me to stay . . . . . ..

haiz

2009-11-20T23:30:00.003+08:00

It seems that ppl are always forgetting me, alright i suck. No matter wtf i did was wrong, always give ppl the wrong impression. Nobody's best friend, ppl would only think abt me when they need to do things other than that. If i die that is my problem I am feeling depressed lately seems to be like no matter how i try to change things will never change it would always repeat again and again.

sometimes and many times i just feel like just jump down a building or something end this shity life
i feel so alone most of the time. Why ? because i am invisible ? because i am a loner ? i don't know.
often i would be left aside. I feel so stress during work i feel even stress when i am outside i really really do not know wth i should do anymore.

Walking to the road of darkness again, i wonder how long will i be able to get the shit of of it.
is there something wrong with me? or am i just too weird ? maybe it's because i am just too fat
i really really don't know perhaps a curse was place on me and i am so unpopular ? ppl just find me boring after a while ? i really don't know .

Preparing to rot tml again. *rotting in process*

my life, my story .. boring.

2009-02-18T19:47:00.000+08:00

Went down to acer service centre early in the morning as early as 9 am plus woot it is so huge. lol . well i manage to find my way there .. guess what happen to my letter "u" ? since yesterday till now i also dunnoe wtf happen a piece of stupid glue is stucked to the "u" key LOL -.- eeeeee why like that neh ? i also no idea .. i m so bored and depressed .. after my thing is done i went over to daiso. i bought alot of crap.some are useless crap eye lashes la.. things like that .. lol i even bought nail glue for lin dot. xD i think if i ever die ... lol only my best friend and lin dot would be sad .. ^,^ ppl come and go ..i dun know why is it that there are so many nasty ppl keep commenting abt me and my size, no one likes to be big bone and no one likes to be big size. This phase keep gripping on my heart... "ur figure is not like miss "A" it keep haunting over and over me.. wth .. i just feel damn hurtwhy must that guy gimme this kinda nasty comment no one knows as far as i know after 28/2/09 i won't want to go out with him again anymore .. because i dun wana face him. On the 28 i am planning to check into hotel with lin.staying over night from there .. God i am really feeling depressed, do u know i cried and cried at night to sleep.i just pray if there is a next life ... pls PLS make me look prettier and with a super model figure. I am really sickand tired of being looked down and cast aside .. WHY must this always happen to me? seems to be like there is no one on this world knows how am i feeling. everyone is bz. bzbzbzbz working dating etc etc .. best friend had a bf bz with bf . i dun think she will have time for me other than that she is gaming if she calls me she would just ask mesomethings over the phone that's all.
went to visit man li today.. i miss man li alot i dun know when i will be able to meet the rest of the gang member againlol gang member... nah i am refering to shamimi and pei shi ... the last time we saw each other was 4 yrs ago ?omg time really fly xD ... and i am so damn bored.Bored ! why isn't man li here neh ? :P in this point of timei still have alot of doubts in my mind .. will i be able to go for the diploma course ? how long will i be able to stay in the job ? finally when the hell will i slim down ? i really got no idea . . . i wish i wish and i wish .. i can turn back time when i can choose my ancestors. to be smaller built.. -.- things like that.
ROAR ! i really hate myself, what is it that ppl keep telling me to love myself? i really got no idea what is that isn't love somebody just love? so much things to consider ? i really dunnoe..

" ur figure is not like miss A"

2009-02-11T22:23:00.002+08:00

this phase really pierce my heart, i know i dun have a figure. my figure is round. oval fine what ever u name that. this really sucks even if u dun like that person u dun have the right to tell her this. I swear if i have alot alot of money, i will go for liposuction. Things are already bad enough, when u try to do things and it dun work out pouring oil over fire yes i know i am fat very fat dun compare me to other ppl because i am unique.

i hate u !

2009-02-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

my world is filled with hate, i hate my supervisor. While i was talking on the phone and i answered i "dunnoe" she react like a tiger jumping over a rabbit pounce at me screaming at me infront of customer and even pushed me. I didn't know about the promotion thing, another work mate call me from another outlet and she just do this to me. wtf .

come on why must u do this to me? she didn't wana communicate with me, ask her things 2 things can happen either 1. she dun answer u, 2. she gives u a black face and frown at u.
if she is the lady boss i won't even bother to work for her.

Grrrr i hate my supervisor she likes to demotivate ppl, she wants to get me out of this job and most of all she likes to pull ppl down. ever see her encourage anyone? no. She is inefficient, incompletant and illeterate. I HATE HER ~

2008-08-24T09:35:00.002+08:00

empty shell, everything is empty i dun know why but it seems that i can't trust anyone anymore
and it's becoming from bad to worst .. T.T i think i have hurt my game cpl alot alot ... the things i said .. the reaction i gave is so so wrong .. sigh ..

Things are happening, job interview for ck tang and prime supermarket. I dun know how will it goes for one thing sure i dun want to get stuck in this job anymore.

well that's all i can say for now, no mood to blog

emo

2008-06-18T11:46:00.002+08:00

i am still feeling very emo .. head feel so hurts going to burst soon .. i think i am on the verge of falling into depression .. this time i dun know how long it will take to heal ... just hope .. hope that i will start to forget everything .. everything was just a beautiful dream .. trying very hard to put down the dream end on a alarm clock the dream shatters .. i hope i can delete it away. ^.^ trying very hard to recover soon. Even if i diE today .. i would be more than happy to die xD

sad ~

2008-06-18T00:45:00.002+08:00

hi hi i am feeling emo again, why is this kinda thing happening to me? I gave another try in relationships and it failed again... i think it's because i sux too much ,, or perhaps i am not good enough ... my heart is breaking apart again .. i am really really very tired ... i dun know why i just can't stop sobbing .. maybe someday .. some day i will really get over him .. i really dunnoe to know someone is hard to forget some one is even harder .. i realised it 3 yrs ago but i can't stop myself sinking in to another shit ... why is shit always happening ? it hurts so bad .. for a long time i haven't been crying so hard until my head is so pain. Yesterday i didn't sleep well, today is even worst.. i got the worst news .. everything turns out according to the temple's charm ..
better dun go into relationship.. freedom is the best .. ouch .. it really hurtz the sky just split and it fall on me i feel as if i am becoming roti prata .. i am so flaten .. from today onwards ..
I swear i will never never never want to try relationship ever again. I think i will get super drunk on saturday bah .. i dun want to think anymore .. i am so drained why it ended up this way? I dun think we even started .. i am just so foolish to thnk that is going to work.

My tears are bitter .. and my heart is dying ..

spoiled day

2008-04-04T17:52:00.002+08:00

I went to visit Man Li after the visit to the SGH, after that i went down to Bishan today and later to takashimaya and finally bugis supposed to be a pefect day~ i actually found ayumi's dome tour disc 2001 i was suppose to be happy, it juz dun sell anymore in the market.

Why is my day spoiled ? i told Meow that i can't take the honey anymore because the honey makes me sick it is very heaty, she asked me how much honey did i took i told her that i took half of table spoon and she was like screaming table spoon and tea spoon difference and i told her
table spoon is juz like soup spoon whereas tea spoon is those we stir coffee spoons. later on while we were having dinner at the hawker centre, we talk abt tea spoon and table spoon again she was yelling at me in front of the table i was like .. wtf nid u be so fierce?

while she was walking towards the bugis street i asked her why are we here, she was like talking in a pissed manner i thought i told u that i wanted to buy shoes. Nvm i followed her behind trying to catch up and she juz turned and said i dun want to go liao and she just stormed off
walk away without waiting for me.

wtf did i do wrong this time ? every time when she needs me i am there for her when everytime when i nid her where is she ? i am feeling very sad today ~ EMO~
can some one pls juz kill me ?

my one and only best friend is turning her back against me ~ walking away more and more from me i couldn't see her face anymore ~ and as i turn and walk i feel pain in my heart ~ a pain that is undescribable i am lonely most of the time now i have to learn to deal wif it how to be solo for the rest of my life ~ can God pls gimme strength to carry on the things i am doing everyday? i dun want to be solo anymore.

sigh

2008-03-25T19:31:00.002+08:00

yesterday my manager came and approach me ask me if i was intrested to go to another outlet
to become supervisor.. i rejected the offer coz tat outlet is not as ez as ppl think more politics than any other outlets and there goes my chance well i never regret this time
once bitten twice shy i was beaten once by my crazy supervisor i dun think i will try again
^^ life is unpreditable ~

Rotting away!

2008-03-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

oh yeah!

2008-03-03T02:16:00.002+08:00

tmd finally able to upload the song and play in this blogger , find tat it's kinda suxs esp the iweb music zZz super slow. Any way i am super bz always sigh as usual i dun have much time, work work work... wth~ sometimes i juz feel so empty and sad i dun know why or what happen ~

haix .. something is wrong wif me again .. looking for certain things in life but yet can't fulfill it
i am a faliure ...

Sad life

2008-02-12T11:37:00.000+08:00

i am asking myself why am i existing in this world? why is it tat i am doing the same one damn fucking thing every day ? I hate myself ~ why ? if i only can turn back time i wouldn't make the same old fucking mistake again. I wouldn't even allow my parents to make the papers to allow this change. How naive i was at that time, i thought things will be the same but i was wrong. First 2 yrs things were the same but as times goes by every thing went chaotic, my things went missing in the house almost everyday. I hate myself for this terrible mistake tat i made and i regret it very much, i am going crazy sooner or later in my mind there is only one thing to do
throw away every thing in my possesion including cds and cosmetic. I am sick of things getting missing and i wish i can die at this minute. God if u can read this msg, i hope u end my life now bring me to hell i dun wish to live on any more i got no more strength, why are u doing this to me to torture me every single day?

Depression

2008-01-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

I am having depression again ~ ppl around me i just didn't feel tat they care abt me, yesterday when i ask my friend abt cash item she is like practically can't be bothered attitude towards me
i feel super sad. I really don't understand why is it tat when ppl needs me i will always be wif them but when i need them where are they? none of them is around i feel so disappointed and even times i have to do my shopping solo ~ i have never been so lonely before every thing is so solo. Even in game today my cyber friend ignore me , what's wrong wif me ? am i tat annoying ?
EMO loh. friends come and goes pass me none have stay wif me through from young till now i am finding my life is becoming from bad to worst there isn't any more meaning to live for life is all about doing the job you hate, getting sick, getting paid, sleep and u wake up face the same thing again over and over again. Sometimes i juz wish i could get sick and die in bed during my sleep i am so sick of my life i mean look at other ppl's life those who went through same sch wif me what jobs are they holding now ? some are uni grats some went to work in bank some work in the office but what the hell am i ? i am just a stupid dumb cashier in some dumb fucking company facing some fucking managers and superiors that dun even fancy me for a higher lvl position. wat am i? i am juz a regular super sucker tat sucks the air can't do any shit for good.

I am really sick of my life can somebody help me ?

Hellgate London official launch pics

2007-11-03T03:37:00.000+08:00

Eeek

2007-10-29T23:00:00.000+08:00

pui today after waking up i went back to sleep again and i was having a daymare yucks,
in the land of resident evil omg~ to get some items from B1 and back to the surface lvl 1 it is so scary ~ u won't know until u are walking there wif a family member ~~~ it just feel so real as if u are in that place and u get goose bumps all over ur body hoping that there isn't any freaking zombie out there ~ >< good thing my daymare didn't really have any zombie appearing xD

and i woke up with a shock :S

what the ~

2007-10-25T14:02:00.000+08:00

what the shit man , from tuesday till wednesday i was really wif cursed wif bad luck sia
tuesday kana scolded by the damn bloody fker delivery man _l_ his workload is heavy does tat mean tat he can vent his anger on me? >< and on wednesday nite my ex called me up and asked me tons of question -.- pls lah ~ i decided to ditch u stop calling me when u have no more gf or what ever shit going on u are no longer in my life ever since tat day u ask me to paid up the 7250 hp money back i have nothing to do with u any more maybe i should change my hp no.

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Do you know of my existance?

2007-10-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

Do u know of my existance ? Do u ever notice me? NO! no one cares no one notice me ~ i think i am slowly fading away ~ maybe some how some day even if i die ~ no one even knows abt it coz i am always not in the lime light. I know ~ i am not attractive ~ not skinny not even good enough for anyone. No one takes notice abt me NO one every one is just so comsumed abt themselves
I, Me AND MYSELF and who cares abt me? no one loh.

I have no identity ~ i am just a extra in this world

Oh wat a day

2007-10-14T19:03:00.000+08:00

tmd what a day met so many fucking problematic customers -.- i dun know why when did i start to hate saturday and sunday.. ever since the first time i kana those kinda ridddiculars complain abt the waiting time _l_ oh come on loh u no need to wait eh? today is a super bad day worst still some one called me and ask me something early in da morning >< awww it's not tat the phone make me wake up it's my parents zzzz they woke up wif a shocked and they stare at me
-.-lll

Another day for housework

2007-10-13T20:38:00.000+08:00

Aww another spring cleaning in my bed area ... ewww i haven't been very hardworking for keeping my bed area clean zzzz. now i am suffering very bad flu ... or rather nose allergy

Bored weekend SUper bored ~~~~ what to do? what can be worst than clearing leave ? another 3 days to go ewww...

FK SEA

2007-10-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

fuck sia i went to see the result today in the audition webpage, guess what? they are just as bia as habbo pls lor no picture just plain words will win the fucking bday card competition. WHAT"s wrong wif my card? fuck lor they should just give the last 2 slot to other ppl instead of tat same gal _l_ _l_ fuck lor SEA SUXS now they have no songs every song is the same. Keep telling ppl that there are licening problem hey that's their fucking problem lor either they get it fix or more ppl gona quit tat fucking game lor.

_l_ bias sia

wow .. u are so sacrastic

2007-09-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

wow, i show my art work to most of my close friend in msn guess what
overly excited can cause ur excitment to die faster. I just merly show some one else in my so call Guild mate in audition and she is overly sacrastic cristize from head to toe abt the colours everything. I dun think she knows what is art, hand drawn art and probably she dun understand a shit what the hell i am talking about. HAND DRAWN ART not computer graphics
she just took the screen shot i sent her and make it some other thing in the computer graphics thingy. when i told her it's hand drawn she is like telling me hey i am better then u but how come i dun see her participate in the same event? dun bull shit lor .. damn u ~ if u are good go and take part in the competition doh -.-

sick of this world, in this world no one is pefect and worst still no one can be trusted .

life ~

2007-09-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of the hungry ghost festival, ppl are burning joss paper on the way while i was on the way back home. i can't help but to wonder, how is my cousin doing after life ?
or there isn't any after life at all...

Is there anything to look forward to life? nothing really bothers me now.
the last thing i only want to know is When will be my last day on earth ?

after so long ..

2007-06-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

wow i didn't know tat i haven't got any time to update my own blog after so long
well wat happen was i was sent to clark quay (The Central) for 1 mth ( i think so) *gaps* lol
the boss there were super nice to me well .. too bad so sad tat i didn't stay there due to the timing i guess .. ^.^ i went back to funan after the date due.

Another phone call of the day~

2007-04-01T02:05:00.000+08:00

Well when i reach home i got a phone call from a friend in another place ~ she told me
tat why did i go around telling ppl in bishan abt promotion? Do u know it resulted tat Wendy saying tat who she think she is who want to promote her? omg when i heard tat news i was disappointed. Why is it everything always me? tmd lor i only told Jenny tat bloody fker tat i was learning to order things tat's all gona promote but haven promote ~ why me again?

Dosen't she know tat by saying this ~ she is making me feeling so sick tat i won't go down to J8 any more even they ask me to go back i won't step in again ~ I hate jenny lor bloody bitch
while i was in Bishan she make everyone sick of her now tat i transfered away from her
still want to back stab me ~ Fk KKKKkkkk

long time bo blog liao!

2007-03-27T02:58:00.000+08:00

Long time long long time~~~~ boh blog liao~~ omg ~ super bz la, recently alot of shit happen in the company wat happen was one day i was working as usual tat bloody bitch juz stared at me as if i did something wrong trying to find fault with me when i did nothing wrong .. omg i dun know wat the fuck i did. while i was talking to another cashier, she say dun try to use words to spike me ~~ i know ur histroy in bishan ~ oh man this phase provoked me to the max i told her on the spot eh u think i talking abt u ? i didn't even meantion ur damn name -.- i said pls lor if u wana say like tat i go find Marvin to talk to us. On saturday Marvin came ~ and i told him every shit tat she did to me Marvin dun believe me i scream at him i said if u really think tat she is so good Pls lor go and ask everyone in the company and see wat they say. She really have prejusticed against me lor >.<

On Sunday, i asked for transfer to the central Mall Marvin asked Jimmy but Jimmy rejected and said tat he dun allow me to transfer over there. He started to ask Marvin wat happen but Marvin didn't told him wat happen between me and tat bloody bitch. while i was talking to him i was literally begging him to let me go~ i told him he didn't know wat really happen. Good thing he did, he really went to ask one by one and most of them told him wat happen

Today, Marvin told me tat all the aunty said the same thing so he know tat i didn't lie to him
ask me to give tat bitch sometime to change.. i told him tat i juz wanted to let tat bitch know tat i am super not happy wif her >.<

I am glad tat i told him everything ever since the first day i came in to this new outlet.. she is like making me nuts ~

la la

2007-03-18T02:48:00.000+08:00

today is juz so damn funny during work though it is tired ... oh man .. full day lei :S
heh anyway i laugh so hard during work until my manager is staring at me but that's nothing bleh :x he dun care de la as long as it dun affect the customer can le :P one of the work mate crack some silly R rated jokes and it was so funny ..

I had a hard time yesterday wheather should i go and clairfy with my manager abt what those fuckers in the work say some bull shit abt me behind my back. After a long time of struggling
i finally asked him the Qns : Eh.. what did the brewer say abt me? @)$(!@$ he say i dun want to change the coffee izzit?

After some confrontation, he told me everything was a misunderstanding .. dun juz believe in what other ppl say unless u have heard it ur self .. sigh bodoh me ..
pai seh nia~ :P

another day have passed ~

2007-02-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

Sunday, raining day ~

Why izzit tat my wish only fufill half? wouldn't it be wonderful if he really msg me ?
every time i stare at msn there's always slience .. not a single msg from him ...
why muz it always i am the one who is making the first move? haix .. he is online now ~ no msg yet ~ i am feeling sad again ~

today i had my supper wif my family ~ *lou Hei* haix suppose to be happy, no idea why
every time it's juz the sight of him in my msn list ba ~ i remember those things tat he said ...
everything seems to be like a dream ~

not msging me rite nvm, wait until one day u are finally msging me ~ i might be dead some where in sg ~ i guess ha .. i am juz a pathatic gal who is waiting for someone ~ for a very long time but tat person juz dun seems to be taking notice of me no matter how long i wait, how muz i prove my sincerity towards him? I am tired ~ i wish i can dream of him tonight just like wat i did in the morning i dreamt abt i was on vacation in auzzie but no idea which part but tat place is just so relaxing ~ with big blue sea ... and smiling ppl around me .. no worries ..

Wow ! it's ang pao time!

2007-02-20T23:13:00.000+08:00

wah today is the happiest day in my working day in funan why? coz today no one scolds me
or kick my arse ^^ and i receive tons of ang pao from all my work mate muwahaha
surprise~ today i saw my sec sch teacher it's like Wah ! why is he here ? lol... i remember last yr he came and saw me in j8 too :o wat a coincidence lol ..

any way this yr i feel tat it's not so happening during lunar new yr .. why? coz .. every where is closed! aww .. anyway today is super free and i was talking to the brewer .. i asked her why izzit tat everytime when i talk to those manager or higher position ppl esp male boss~ my supervisor is giving me the black face? aww am i not suppose to talk to them ? :P she told me she is slightly unbalanced ba :D hahaa .. hope tat tomorrow i dun kana any scolding from tat bloody bitch again during work. haix tomorrow blood test and the next day after tomorrow i am going to see doc
hair keep falling omg .. am i going to become bootak ? T.T

long time no blog

2007-02-13T04:26:00.000+08:00

sigh~ been super duper bz these past week CNY is around the corner in fact next week is the festive seasion ... but there is nothing for me to look forward to this yr. In fact i juz miss him so much ..~~ there i go again hmm i think i didn't see him online for abt 6 mths plus le ba .. wonder how is he doing.. maybe he got a gf ~ and doing all his work .. shouldn't have disturb him..
why am i still holding on to something tat is impossible and still having hopes in this relationship? every time i ask myself this question, i just can't bring an valid answer to that question ~ how? just miss him soooo much .. can he just appear online and talk to me for just once ? can't he just spare 5 mins for me?

*sobs*

Everyday is a sucky day

2007-02-01T00:04:00.000+08:00

Sigh why is everyday a torture to me? got to face tat idoit woman ~ got to follow her orders
and worst of all everytime i tell my manager what happen he juz says malaysian is like tat
the way she talk is like juz so rude ~ -.- i dun see other ppl behave like tat lei why is my manager always siding her? wat's worst most of the time she is still damn bias against her friend .. giving her most of the overtime benefits and rest of the ppl dun benefit any shit from her. Most of the time i dun get any scolding from her is when manager is there .. omg is she crazy or wat appear to be super good mood or wat ever is she unbalanced? i doubt so ba ...
>.<

ha ~ she is juz so fake

2007-01-19T02:17:00.000+08:00

Why would my supervisor becoming so fake? zzzzz today when marvin the manager came .. she is like so friendly .. "acts friendly" ... tmd so fake ... i was telling the rest of the ppl ...
she is like so gian nan ren .. bleh! she sux! .. i just hate her to the core .. dun know la .. blehx
anyway .. everyday is a nightmare with her .. haix.. i just wish that day can come faster ..
when i can go out and meet lav, memo, ting and maybe lucky enough find vivi .. lol..
i dun know if vivi can make it anot .. well.. hope tat day will come and we can just play at pc bunk ~

Recently he have appear online in my msn again .. didn't msg him, dun have the courage to msg him.. guess everything is over sigh .. V day is coming again guess this yr will be spending alone again .. heh .. sad .. never have receive any flowers in my entire life .. haix .. maybe the only time i will get flowers will be the day i die ba tsk tsk ~ sad hor hmm dun have the looks tat i deserve flowers .. oh ya someone gave me 1 stalk of rose before .. tat person is Jill ~ best buddy
haix .. seems to be like a failure ~ no achievement in finding someone to share those special moments with me haix so sad ~

why are all the guys so despo?

2007-01-11T06:05:00.000+08:00

Recently i saw hong jian bring another gal walking pass the shop.. and den guess wat mei fong juz said woah ur new gal ah? den ur gf how ? he still have the cheek to ask mei fong pretty ma?
kao this kinda guy also got .. tmd wonder who is the unlucky one to be his gf ..
-.-
the next thing ... while i was playing games, ppl keep asking me friendster la etc etc
age la .. thou i dun mind dosen't mean tat i dun really care it seems to be like guys are all despo
none of them are good -.- pardon me for saying this but it juz show me the fact that they are like tat -.-ll

changes are still going on in the company .. Jimmy is now in charge of most of the thing
which i think he is super troublesome... -.- tmd have to report all the things to him bleh! His suck up assitant rebekka -.- kana sai! see only ppl on the high lvl dun even bother abt crew
-.- wat kinda manager ? kana sai manager ! like snoob keep staring at the sky -.-
as a supervisor/ manager we have to be humble and most of the time crew comes first rather den to be suck up under boss' ball

hmm ~~

2007-01-04T05:14:00.000+08:00

another day have passed .. today is my off day! .. tmd no day no night work until dun even have the time to eat .. zhu ba jie! dun they find tat this place is so damn sian? haix... anyway .. today while i was gaming.. some one ask my hp. no. wah .. something tat is not exciting any more since tat person wana have my no. just give lor but den hor i think i will never meet up tat person ..
ever wonder why my friendster and msn no picture ? coz i know none of the ppl who meet me will meet me up the second time .. so why bother to put my picture in msn and friendster?
heh heh .. dun wana the entire world knows how does this Miss Joy look like ...

most of the time i think i look like miss piggy ba :P well maybe x 3 times horrible den her...
not pretty at all .. hmm super ugly hahahaa..

damn i am having fever + sore throat and nose block .. eeeee
when will i recover ? so damn sick..

sick sick bleh~

2007-01-03T01:33:00.000+08:00

omg i am sick .. i think i have talk too much today .. too many ppl come ..
i dun know if i will be able to work ma... shit.. sigh .. anyway taken a few panadol ..
and i think i am not going to recover so soon ..
sigh

sleeping time ...

The world came to an end

2006-12-28T16:27:00.000+08:00

I didn't went to visit my cousin, suppose to visit her but the rain getting heavier. She left the world today on the 28/12/06 to heaven, everything just seems yesterday .. she was fine the other day and then the next day she is sick and next is she is gone .. T.T

why does God want to take her away so early? why dosen't any healing send to her? why?
i think i begin to hate God for taking her away, she is still so young and she just passed her 15th birthdate.

i think i am a very bad cousin to her, i wasn't able to visit her most of the time and i think i sucks too.

Will there be mirical?

2006-12-26T18:34:00.000+08:00

i dun know seems to me tat life is no longer important, death just come easily and even sickness.
i am going to visit one of my cousin in kk later .. i dun know how long but i really hope tat she can have the strength to carry on. i pray in my heart tat this won't be the last christmas tat she is spending on the earth ..

this year before 2006 ends, my only wish is tat she can get well soon and live far more den 2006
why must God take her away in such a early age? can He not take her away from us?
ever since she was born it just seems like yesterday .. a baby to a teenager.. and things just turn out to be like tat .. i am very sad .. i dun want to lose anyone i know any more.

Friends if u are reading this page.. pls cherish the ppl around u before u start to regret, it will be too late by the time u know how to cherish .. that person is either gone or no longer beside u.

A busy day

2006-12-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

I had a busy day at work, i thought today would be a doomed due to the crowd .. etc etc
lol something tat is so unexpected .. heh heh .. no ppl today wor.. but luckily all the eggs were solded heh heh. sigh tomorrow will be another hell day "Christmas" as another Ph ..
blehx .. good thing is i am partnering aunty tomorrow morning ... :P

haix

2006-12-18T10:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday while i was playing games.. a friend of mine msn me asked me.. hey how's life as usual i told him life sux.. and all those bad things just come to my mind suddenly i juz feel like cutting myself up again .. i dun know why but i am depressed .. sigh I hope tat these feeling will just go away ..

There was once this gal who fall madly in love with some one but tat some one dosen't appriciate her.. in the end the gal is just so sad...

a surprised evening

2006-12-16T01:10:00.000+08:00

hmm why surprised? dunnoe wor , was playing my damn game as usual.. den suddenly in the noon jill called me and ask me out during evening.. says tat christopher wants to meet us lol..
i think hor i never expect christopher to be a teacher after all :o he went back to old secondary school to teach :o sigh ppl does change lol..

anyway lifes back to hell the damn fucker is back to work sigh.. i have to see how she scold me tomorrow .. suddenly call me ask me to do afternoon shift... )_#(%)$#%

another shocking news

2006-12-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

Today after work i was like calling up a old friend of mine, catching up wif him and to my horror
He is wif another friend of mine together! :o :o ! lol maybe not horror lol heh heh
ever since last time i was asking A abt B both gave me negative ans .. they are not positive abt each other .. and now they ended up together lol..

something happened today .. knn i top up another 10 bucks.. because of shortage..
why am i always toping up constantly? -.-lll

_#%)*_#%#!_%$

Bias Bias Bias!

2006-12-05T08:05:00.000+08:00

Why muz the damn fucking super be so damn fucking bias? when the other shift cashier says she dun know how to key in the promo thing and so when we exchange shift she pass me the money and ask me to key in promo for her after i changed my shift wif her i did key in everything tat i am suppose to do. At the end of the day i have shortage of 4 bucks, tat fucker ask me to top it up dun she know tat toping up the sales from shortage will cause me to be charged? damn her and wat's worst most of the time even it's shortage of 2 bucks she would wants me to top up the remaning of 1 buck if not she will give me tat kinda fucking look.

aww i wonder if it's gal A will she do tat no lor coz gal A is malaysian and she will help her
juz tat i am a damn pathatic fucking alien no one wants to care or bother with. All of them are baddies and they suck. BIAS why muz they be so damn fucking BIAS?! fuck them

Surprised morning call~~~

2006-12-03T19:21:00.000+08:00

tmd today wake up thought sunday go work should be no other den half an hr later den usual time .. den in the end.. +#%*_+_$#%)@#$% morning call from my damn freaking supervisor ...
aww she say oh she forgot to tell me tat today openng shift is at 7 am muz reach instead of 7.30am reach there .. -.-lll i was like lol? u kidding or wat nvm so i was damn lucky to get a cab early in the morning 6.55 alright reach there abt 7 - 7.05 great she punched the card for me..
during work .. hey tat's wat i hate abt her .. tmd she blur liao den come infront mess up my counter .. in the end morning sales is only 900 plus bucks.. kao if i were her .. dun care le!
i would juz take all the order .. collect all the money den make eggs abt 5 tubs at 1 shot ..

haix i dun know wat to say abt her la.. now tat she missed out on most of the eggs sale..
den manager will start to say it's me i make the sales go down de -.-llll
help!~ can some one help me to get out of this damn freaking working place? even during sleep time i can dream of tat horrible terrible vegetable witch!
and i start to talk during my sleep .. wat do u think?~ + she is a regular back stabber ..
just to help her damn malaysia gal ~~ -.-llll

another day~

2006-12-02T15:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went out wif my work mate, to orchard to see the christmas lighting and at the same time to see other outlet of the company lol. bo liao i know but it's quite fun to go out in a group after work to relax especially after facing those idoits at work will make u go crazy.

here are some of the pics :D
wat's worst ...
TMD they make me wear christmas hat during work #_($#)&*$% so hot loh!

The shocking inside news

2006-11-28T17:16:00.000+08:00

Today went out with a colledgue, i manage to find out tat actually my supervisor is a bad person but still i am not convince tat she so bad after all. Some of the facts, according to the gal who told me.. Morning cashier aunty dun even like the other gal A, while she decide to teach me the eggs instead of teaching gal A she taught me the new techniques of eggs. 2. Not everyone , well almost every one hates new supervisor.

Brewer is damn bias, everytime says gal A is good never finds fault with her everytime compliment her. Find fault in me, critisize me and what's worst makes me blur most of the time
in the end says tat i am incapable and i am stupid. Almost all the bad points i have it all.

I feel sad for them for trying hard to get rid of me, the more they try the more i am still remaining there it's because i have made a promise. More over i have more advantages then them, i am not afraid of them but i am starting to hate the damn fucking brewer more and more.

BIAS SHALL NOT TRIUMPHED Fairness shall rule the world

hmm

2006-11-27T16:06:00.000+08:00

wow it's been sometime since my last post heh heh anyway, things are going on good
just tat some of the fine details i must pay attention to when ordering stock and cordinate with the bastard uncle. As days goes by, I find tat the supervisor is not so bad after all seems to be like she is begining to accept me. Oh well, heard from other colledgues tat there's a pet in the company not really pet but it's favouritism and biasness ya? The bastard brewer is so bias everytime keep on saying tat how good the pet is while how bad i fair in my performance during work -.-lll if she is good i wouldn't be there le. tmd.. she learn counter before but fail to master the skills and still dare to praise her tat she is good blah blah blah. I know why it's because i am ugly ya? -.- but dun nid to do tat to me ma~~~ BASTARD!

Eh~ bz bz bz

2006-11-20T00:12:00.000+08:00

Wah why today so bz de ah~ lol.. i dun mind heh heh at least today i still able to cope at work today sigh cannot sleep so early later cannot tahan tomorrow fall asleep during work.

i am happy today because 1. my cousin is feeling better plus there are progress in everything
2. I gain improvment in my audition game today
3. i can see phamton of the opera at esplanade someday in march wif Jill

xD so i am happy loh :D

A mth in hell~

2006-11-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

okay now i suffer in hell for 1 mth .. it's time to stop having nightmares, nothing can scare me now :P well i can say hor, tat bitch is ok lah not so good not too bad either. Kept critizing me infront of all the workmate tat oh i am not serious abt my work, since manager have already promoting me to the higher position (supervisor) and yet i am still not serious enough.

After tat she say it's been a mth i must learn how to do my job well, if i can't get my things done in the way she want then i will be doomed. She dun know how to tell my manager abt my progress. I told her fine, if u think tat i cannot take tat position go ahead and tell manager tat
i am bad performer. I cannot take the position he offer me and i can just happily stay as a cashier, punch my freaking card and happily go home. Tat's what i told her yesterday, guess wat today is her off day again never in a week i feel so relax and confident in my work before.

I guess ever since i step into the new outlet, i have nightmare till now
almost every day abt being scolded by her.

aww!

2006-11-13T17:16:00.000+08:00

Another Beginning of the week to work went to visit my cousin at hospital last week
she is suffering from cancer :-( but i hope that she will recover soon and go out with my elder cousin and me. To grow stronger and happier, able to go clubbing with us one day tat is my only wish.

To me i dun wish to see someone who i know since childhood to leave me, it's sad when u know her from a baby till a young lady now. Why would God allow a 15 yr old young lady to suffer this kind of pain?

There is nothing much we can do except to pray for miracle for her

Wat a bad surprise~

2006-11-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

*CRYS* loudly **

End of my normal crew lifespan ... +#(%T+#@_%( why wana promote me ! wth ..
why ?! i am so stress.. new responsiblities .. new shits.. new challenge ...
tmd.. why is it tat it's always me?!

T.T

super happy fun time morning :P

2006-11-01T16:12:00.000+08:00

Today the morning super, is not in weee she went for meeting :D and so every one is kinda more relaxed without her presence hee hee. Any way after she left for abt 15 mins later Bishan Boss came. I was so xsurprised by his appearance at funan :o omg..
i think he is going for meeting if not why he wear until so formal lol..

anyway today's sale is not bad oh by the way I got my pay today :)i am so happy

End of a suffering morning -

2006-10-30T16:38:00.000+08:00

Yesterday reach home at 9 pm.. tmd my father fighting with me a bath room ..
End up he went to use the bathroom first, so i cannot use have to wait for him in the end guess wat .. #_)%*#_)%#*_%!@ he is using the phone in the bath room and bathe for 1 hr )#(*%_#@)%* as a result i have to suffer a tough morning due to lack of sleep )_+#*%_+#)%*_+# stupid sia .. and wat's more i talked abt the nightmare with my friend on msn he said .. nvm coz "he" is a human and he is damn bz with games oh well, ya true. Dun nid to msg me over msn coz i am nobody to him ha ha why am i so stupid? waiting for something tat won't come true trying to dream of something tat is impossible. worst still trying to wait for someone who dun even know tat i am waiting for him.

Begining of another bad day~

2006-10-29T08:28:00.000+08:00

I had another nitemare again .. :( i am sad in fact i dream abt him, thou i had never see him before. I just feel so much ... in my dream, I dreamt tat he came and find me at the same time he know some other gals and even had a gf.

But i am surprised tat my reaction was oh isit ? I know tat gal is ur gf I wish u all the best but feeling heart ache and walk away. Could it be tat in reality he already have a gf? maybe who knows ...

Another Day passed ~

2006-10-28T21:54:00.000+08:00

Today suffer for another day .. well.. I am the runner for the day sigh, Tat bloody bitch just wouldn't let me touch the counter at all ..
>.< BITCH!!! just know how to say tat i am slow .. how abt her? she is equally as slow as me ... in my mind i am always thinking of going back to Bishan .. but i know in my heart tat i dun think i even have a chance of going back any more. The next worst thing i know is to change job i dun think i will even have bonus for this yr.

Sigh .. see how ba ..

Things get better

2006-10-26T08:19:00.000+08:00

By now things have gotten better during work, ^^ things start to go on smoothly compare to day 1 haix.. sometimes after i blog so much in my own blog i wonder who da hell would actually read wat the hell i blog inside here :P

anyway, there are ppl who are bad there in the new branch well bad as in they can phone and tell manager tat u are slow .. etc etc .. ha ha anyway who cares? if they think tat i cannot make it den pls throw me fire me out of the company.. :P

Tomorrow is the dinner event .. by right i am looking forward to it but den .. TOmorrow i am on fucking morning shift !!!! jiu ming ah!!! i dun know if i can wake up a not i hate working during morning nehx!

>.<

First day of closing ~

2006-10-24T09:39:00.000+08:00

Well i am very bz haix, lazy, and tired! lol after i learn opening i have to learn closing. Now this particular supervisor is soooo cute u know why? coz when she put up the memo.. she dun know a damn single thing for the memo .. ha ha ..
the memo writes .. " to manager and supervisor" ....

and the head manager ask her to put up the A4 size memo for customer to see should be the other copy.. "dear customer, blah blah"
I dun know wat to say abt her i told her tat's the wrong paper she seems not to be bother with me .. diao~ nvm let's see wat happen norx. Told her le wrong copy she wouldn't listen :P

wow after closing it's 9 pm so early .. ^^

Movie Review ~ DOA Dead or Alive

2006-10-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

I was pretty nervous for the first sunday at funan it is quite free. I was expecting a crowd but in the end seems to be like lesser crowd for today :o

I went to catch a movie with Jill Yesterday during holiday at saturday was expecting to watch "the Gurdian" but in the end we didn't manage to catch tat movie but instead we watched "DOA" Dead or Alive :o pretty cool movie most of the time with those pretty babes with hot bodies but one of my favourite is "katsumi" The Japanese princess of a particular clan she is so beautiful with brown long hair and hazel colour eyes ^^ a typical japanese looking gal.

Katsumi went to DOA island to look for her missing brother which most of the ppl told her tat her brother was dead 4 yrs ago during a fight at DOA island. She refused to believe the Clan and decided to leave the castle, creating alot of problems for herself once she leave the castle. The clan will kill her if she leaves the castle on her own.

Now this DOA island have more den it meets the eye, the island host Donovan is a bad guy who trys to get fighters to go to the top and the final 4 remaining ppl in the group end up being tied up and download their fighting style into the computer and send out to the various fighters to make them stronger.

While during all these Katsumi saw her Brother alive . . . .

New discovery

2006-10-20T15:55:00.000+08:00

I discovered something else today after work a aunty told me tat the supervisor dun know english de :o ok tat explains why when i order "BS" she dun understand instead of asking me to say out the full word "butter sugar" lousy super .. >.<
nvm since she want me to do her style let it be but she just wouldn't teach me how nia nvm ^^ i use my own method insted and so i wrote on the pieace of receipt "LS"
and she frown at me again saying tat i wrote in english .. kao wat u want? like tat also cannot like this also cannot den? why not u do it urself let me go behind and do toasting isn't it better? :P

nvm i shall try again on sunday .. let's see how

I have already promised Yan Li tat i will try my best at the new outlet i have given her my word and will not go back on wat i promised her so let's see how this bloody bitch do to me

End of another day :o

2006-10-19T16:47:00.000+08:00

oh man early in the morning while i was combing hair i discover my hair drop alot :o
_#)%*@_+#% for the past few days i am not eating well tmd.. so sad now i lose hair.
Good thing today someone came down talk to me the head of manager. aww she come down the power so big eh? Ha ha not bad even able to get the bitch to talk to me

Bitch say she thought i know everything -.- tmd.. as if wor if i know everything i wouldn't be here le down here is ur territory ur say i have no say wor i dun know anything wor so she have to teach me la _#@%*@_#% tmd is tat how u treat ppl who know everything? >.<

The head manager say why am i looking so sad? and why am i not smiling like i do in Bishan ? wat makes me so sad suddenly .. i say alot of things .. and i started to cry T.T i dun know la so sad
i told her everything .. haix .. she made me feel better at least she is nice gal.
If she never appear together with my manager today i guess i would be dead long ago le .. ^^

Depression over!

2006-10-18T17:10:00.000+08:00

Finally i know why tat bitch is so bitchy le ^^ she just got promoted 2 weeks ago.
Oh so wat? i make sure i find something to demote her to revange for wat the fuck she did to me. Oh she very good in every area eh? thinking tat i am a threat to her eh? dun wana teach me how to make eggs eh?

go fuck off loh +#_%(#@+_%(# as if i cannot make it without u.
Go to hell man BITCH !

Depression

2006-10-17T16:22:00.000+08:00

I am into deep depression, I am crying after every day's work Today is my 2nd day
I didn't eat much for the past 2 days and today from morning till now i haven eaten anything yet. I am just too sad to eat anything, i dun know why.. But i just feel like dying, I feel so miserable. Only if He can msg me on msn to encourage me for just this once, i really feel very miserable. I dun know why, i really feel like dying, taking panadol with coke with alot of panadol..
falling into deep sleep and not to wake up again i feel so miserable.
it's just because of jin feng tat bloody bitch.
i hate her far worst den Jenny, They are about the same lah. Why? they are all so proud of themself their english is equally bad.

I hate Jin feng, she is such a bloody bitch as if she is only the best the rest of the ppl are inferior to her. Pls la sweet she talk to those caucasion pronouse as "shit" Try as "tray"
-.- if ur english is bad dun fight with me to talk to a caucasion pls, they will think tat u are asking them to eat shit ^^

First sucky day at work (new branch)

2006-10-16T17:42:00.000+08:00

Wat the fuck man, thought new place new beginning first of all i am damn fucking wrong i went and i cried there. I feel so sad, first of all the damn fucking supervisor dun care abt you. As if i know where are all the things suppose to put and do wat -.- FUCKER loh dun bully ppl until this kinda extend lah we are all working in the same company u should take care of newbie from other branch transfer de. damn it

After lunch, she took out a pieace of sales form and put behind the table after tat when it's 1 o clock i am done with my things and next thing is to count my money as usual God damn knows wat's she's thinking fuck sia she just ignore me when i dun know wat to do with the God forsaken money. As if i know put where she ignore me >.<
I swear after bonus i am not going to stay in tat fucking company, come on loh from the way i have the experiance i will not lose out to u loh. Dun nid to treat me like tat.

Today's last day

2006-10-16T01:12:00.000+08:00

Today's the last day at bishan, i tried to sleep but i juz can't sleep
tomorrow will be a new beginning for me. I should be happy but instead when i try to sleep when i close my eyes i just cannot forget abt the image abt bishan. Everything will be changed .. from this moment .. i just can't help it but to feel sad, i dun know why but i just cannot remember bull dog's face. Now he is no longer the man tat i hate, THe man tat i really hate now is CLIVE -.-lll he is really an arse hole. When ppl are working he says tat u are not working not doing anything at all

Now everything is over, my adventure at funan shall begins. I will visit my nai ma some day to update her more . Today when i see Kenneth (causeway) boss i feel tat he is having a bad time i guess from the look from his face. All i can say is
who ask them to be so stingy.. if he hasn't been so stingy, his business wouldn't fail until so badly.

Looking forward to the dinner :P:P

Relationship issue

2006-10-15T00:12:00.000+08:00

oh my gut, tomorrow is my last day in Bishan. haix i will miss the charcoal there ~ lol. The bloody next day, morning shift haix.

Why is it tat everyone around me keep on telling me abt bgr things? is BGR so important? i dun really think so, i used to think tat having a bf is good. Until "he" changed my thinking, Bf is = trash
they know nothing abt u, they have no initiave abt everything worst of all
they dun care u and shower u wif all the attention u want. It's sad tat most of the time when u give u dun get wat u want, when u keep on giving ppl take u for granted.
Even some of my friends takes me for granted, as if i owe them things. I feel so hurt, i think i dun wana trust anyone ever again. Even as "he" is online at msn, he dosen't even msg me at all the last time tat we chat on msn is abt 1/2 mth ago.
Does he still care ? i dun think so, each time i see "his" name on msn each time i sigh. I dun think he care i herby pronouse tat my heart for "him" is dead, i dun wana show anymore care/concern anymore. Does "he" judge me by looks or does he judge me by my heart? or juz playing wif me on msn treating me as a normal friend. No idea,
i have really no idea wat the hell is it all about. Sometimes juz treat me so cold, sometimes juz talk to me so much.

I think we have communication problem, he no longer talks to me as much as before.
I am sad to even think abt it now a days i dun even talk abt him to my gal pal, i told my best friend wat ever happens to him i dun wana care anymore coz i have been "frozen" for so long kept in the fridge.

Enough of him, *sigh* i cannot wear the damn dress for dinner .. i think i have to work very hard to fit into the dress .. which is beri hard leh .. how huh?
any ideas tat i can lose weight beri fast? lol..

Last 2nd day

2006-10-13T23:50:00.000+08:00

well today is my last 2nd day working in Bishan, sigh .. alot of things happen there.
Nothing much for me to remember there .. and i think i dun wana remember anything there
:P anyway it's a new beginning from monday onwards no more afternoon lazy me for next week
it's totally morning shift wor :S:S:S awww~
i feel like killing my boss for putting me in morning shift lol juz joking ahaha, i juz realise tat i cannot function in the morning my bed is always calling me ~ ~

heh heh, bad news i juz discover tat i have dry eye :o! omg.. i think i am going to die soon :S
alot of things happening to my body >.< wth ..

Dry eye symptons

- ur eyes have tears more den normal
- ur eyes sees some black flying objects
- ur eyes have a "sand" grain feeling
and mostly ur eyes is itchy irritatable

>.<

i talk alot with my supervisor today, i am hoping to build a better relationship with her
lol she kept saying as if i am older den her LOL coz i know alot of things when some ppl dun even wana go through hygiene course while i am dying to go through that class lol.. and already i have some basic knowledge of food hygiene. Somemore i told her abt same food difference appearance different effect and different taste, why is it tat the same popiah different effect on the customers? There is a popiah stall in bishan, used to be there in the hawker center due to the overwhealming business queues. The stall owner decided not to rent the space to the uncle so the uncle went to the next place to sell popiah juz beside the hawker centre , there's Ah Mei's Kaya toast shop and the queue went there. While over at the stall owner side no one's queueing
why? it's in the food, the magic is all inside tat popiah.
she was so surprised by wat i said lol.. i hope tat when i go over to the other branch ppl would not be like the same current batch .. back stabbing ppl
:D

The wake of a shocking morning :o

2006-10-12T07:24:00.000+08:00

By right, by now i should be sleeping in my bed like pig zzZZzz i was woken up by the voices of my parents. My dad is sick :o, he was shivering and unable to stand still zZZZzzzz
so he had to called up his boss to tell him tat he had to MC . I am shocked coz dad seldom gets sick, guess age does play a part of it and the next thing is fog.

Three more days to part wif current work place, sigh nothing for me to remember there
it's juz like him. There is nothing more for me to remember him, some one whom i like very much but i juz can't get him lol.. i am juz so naive. LOL thinking back all those things tat i have done i feel so silly ^^ Especially those ppl who complain me i wana thank them for
making me a better person making me to smarter the way i am now. Improving my service,
helping me to understand them more. In the area of wat the hell they are thinking lol, now i know they wana spend small amount of money but yet expect to be served like restaurant standard. heh heh service line is not ez

This is the final week~!

2006-10-11T01:05:00.000+08:00

This is the final week i will be spending at the work place which i spend there for 2 yrs +
when this place is officially 3 yrs old i will be leaving to another outlet. Knowing new ppl,
ppl tat i dun know. haix anyway today Peggy cried until very hard, i dun know wat to say to her
but she juz kept crying saying tat everyone is leaving her behind. Well sad to say i am the only one tat is not sad to go out of this outlet because most of the time things tat are unhappy juz happen there .. complains etc etc, arguments wif the others but usually i am the one lose dun know why .. they says i am unreasonable blah blah .. so when they cry i won't cry i would be juz too happy to get out of tat place. I told peggy, time to move on and out of the comfort zone and into the danger zone. I know in my heart tat i have to grow more learn more things from other ppl this can be another chance of learning instead of staying there to rot and not bearing any fruit of progress.

Time to move on , to the fast and furious zone ^^