Depression

I am having depression again ~ ppl around me i just didn't feel tat they care abt me, yesterday when i ask my friend abt cash item she is like practically can't be bothered attitude towards me
i feel super sad. I really don't understand why is it tat when ppl needs me i will always be wif them but when i need them where are they? none of them is around i feel so disappointed and even times i have to do my shopping solo ~ i have never been so lonely before every thing is so solo. Even in game today my cyber friend ignore me , what's wrong wif me ? am i tat annoying ?
EMO loh. friends come and goes pass me none have stay wif me through from young till now i am finding my life is becoming from bad to worst there isn't any more meaning to live for life is all about doing the job you hate, getting sick, getting paid, sleep and u wake up face the same thing again over and over again. Sometimes i juz wish i could get sick and die in bed during my sleep i am so sick of my life i mean look at other ppl's life those who went through same sch wif me what jobs are they holding now ? some are uni grats some went to work in bank some work in the office but what the hell am i ? i am just a stupid dumb cashier in some dumb fucking company facing some fucking managers and superiors that dun even fancy me for a higher lvl position. wat am i? i am juz a regular super sucker tat sucks the air can't do any shit for good.

I am really sick of my life can somebody help me ?