urgh stress

damn it i never realised current company have so much stress.. ahaha it's ok i must remain positive so that i have the motivation to go work. yes it is stress now what? stress from school
wtf i have 4 project and 1 final project ~ WTF when do i have the time to go and write them ?!
omg omg omg i am dying soon le la 9th day on work.. things are starting to go on track
well hopefully ~ i can stay long in this job just that plenty of things i gotta becareful of
check my work over and over again to ensure i get the correct things done ~

sigh stress ~

sob sob

started work 3 days .. my thoughts monsterous.. never ending.. i filed alot of docs. until i want to cry .. went for exam today. i wana cry from after work but i didn't i questioned myself alot of times.. have i made the correct choice going over to Lisa side? because to me from what i see is
i am more of a hinderance than help to Lisa.. i dunnoe .. i might get what i wanted .. an office job
but still i don't know what i want. I know this is a good opputunity but haiz..
yes look at it this way Boss is nice but things is like overloaded .. i am stressed and at the same time depressed.. 1. i can't see my family members.. 2. i can't do alot of things ..
but if i dun stay there and finish my things i will never gona finish it on time ..
I am very stressed.. VERY.. omg can God pls help me gimme wisdom?

Evelyn knows that i quitted retail line.. she popped a question in my head.. u are not getting any younger.. think abt ur future.. what kind of life do u want? if u dun wana work in the retail line anymore than why are u taking up this course? and is office really what u wanted ? because it is a really different enviroment ..

Let me have a different taste of enviroment for a while.. ever since ITE till now i was actively looking for an office admin type of job but no one wants me to work for them..
now i have the chance and boss is kind enough to let me learn in her company she even wants to bring me along for company trip to thailand..

mixed feeling`

The feeling i had today when i am leaving this company was like the senerio is just like sebastian telling ciel ~ ehh those are the beautiful memories for u .. ciel replied those are beautiful..
for the last time .. i am ending what i was supposed to do everyday .. i know in my heart after today i won't have to go back to funan anymore.. Good bye funan .. good bye to those whom i see everyday .. today will be the last yea.. for the past 7 yrs so many things happened in the company .. i met alot of new ppl .. alot of nasty colledgues as well

4 yrs in funan i met ppl who taught me alot of things .. 4 yrs is not short neither it is long ..
but .. yea 4 yrs .. experiance alot of thing.. it became part of me every morning there would be
coffee .. and bread .. and everything .. x.x UrGH i hate it .. the memories .. haiz ..

memories are nice but they are memories esp the Bishan memories .. those are the really memorable ones ..

part of me wants to leave the company .. part of me refused to leave the company..
wtf .. why am i so mixed .. but for sure i dun wana go back because i dun wana spoil the
nice memories abt the place i used to work in..

i feel very sad .. for no reason haiz .

days are getting nearer and nearer

Alright, i have tender not serving my notice what's next? i am going to go missing in action on 16th

i don't care wtf is going on. 1. i am sick of this place . 2. i am really really sick of this place 3. i am fucking sick of this place _l_ this time it will not fail because if i fail and back fire

2 person is gona kill me. 1st would be Jill 2nd person would be Joanne x.x omg la

the 2 Js and i am the 3rd J - Joy x.x

well ~ these few days i don't have mood to work there anymore. Joanne and Jill said the same thing eh dun give a shit might as well don't go to work and start directly at Jill's office.. i can't reason is because .. i already promised manager .. that no matter what i will finish 15 of this mth ..

after 15 my conscience is clear because i already had told her wth is going on..

x.x i am feeling damn stress reason is because alot of things going thru my head .. now the thing is not abt to quit or not to quit . The thing now is .. am i able to fit into Jill's company ? and am i able to do well .. i have high expectation of myself it is not am i able to survive but am i able to do the job well? x.x because of this alot of times i have this stupid idea of dropping sch ..

i can't ~ if i were going back to the sch again .. next time .. which i have no idea (IF) than i would have to pay 3k instead of 300 bucks x.x as a penalty .. wth loh ..

HAIZ i dunnoe anymore le .. God pls save me ~ T.t

Happiest day of my life

Life was never so happy ^.^ i had never felt so happy before ~ i told Wendy abt working w/o giving notice ~ some ppl say penalty 1 mth salary so.. i said .. i didn't feel like working for this company anymore because i feel very upset.

Times and times again too many time infact, i have been pushed by mad woman kicked ~

scolded for no reason. i had it enough from the first day of work she was there like a step mother

keep scolding me. The first time i will never forget ~ for the whole of one week i had depression

and hair loss she kept making me feel that i was so useless ~ when the crowd arrived long queues formed she will tell me to step out and clear cups instead of asking me to learn how to deal with the queue. Initially i thought i would continue to be like this for the rest of my life in this job.

she kept scolding me because she is jealous when i talked to Mr marvin tan our ex manager

in fact i told him pls xfer me to other places like toa payoh la i really don't want to work here any more ~ i cried when i requested for transfer.

things for a while i thought got better but i was wrong beginning of this year ard March ? i am not sure because it was a while back ~ while she was working overtime .. i answer the phone another colledgue asked me ehh do u know there is this this this promotion than i said ehh i dunnoe orh after than she said on the phone oo u muz know le ok ? coz today start le.

Mad woman instantly came running behind me grab the phone away from me tell me what u shit u don't know? DIDN'T i tell u ? than she Pushed me away Very hard because i was crying infront of the counter .. I won't forget that day she challanged me Go and tell Wendy la.

yes i did had my revanged i went to tell Wendy ~ i told her what happen i cried and cried ..

it didn't help much even if she tell her to change but that is part of her already so yes i was being pushed.

so for the next few mths everything is peaceful i thought o how good it is .. no i was wrong

some body back stab me behind my back . yes told her that i over cooked the eggs and when she saw me over boil eggs that day yes that faithful sat 31/7/10 she pushed me again.

this time .. i told myself.. yayaya Joy Lee this would be the last time u are gona be pushed u are not gona be pushed again by her ever.

I got an Job offer , interesting boss and the interview was like 5 mins? and i got hired .

i was battling weather to give 1 mth notice anot but the new boss asked me 2 weeks to settle ur thing is it ok? because i am shortage of man power xD.

why i am so happy today ? It is because i am freed from that demon at my work place ,

i do not need to face her anymore.. and I HATE HER hahaha..

apart from the last time i got my current job this time is the 2nd time i felt so happy.

damn u

DAMN U , fk sia if u dun wana say sry dun say it u sound ultra fake . pls go and die thank u

i have quit all the related ysl club shit and shit blah blah -.-

damn u damn u dun pick up the call no sms nothing o i see because i am not pretty so

u treat ur friend this way ? i see ur true colour now so u and the other males outside the world

is the same no difference

like i care ?

fking kido

sat, went out with the hime sama i can't go to B.A outing the teh parteh wth because all the leave spammed -.- -__- yea there goes my tea parteh well what ever the case i still manage to catch up with the lovely lolis guess what .. after we had the dinner i suggest taking neo prints ..

and there all the major shit happen.. first of all angie and the other hime took the neo prints

either their face kana cut off half / their face disappear !! haha.. nvm .. so we took the other machine .. the result was perfect :D after the pics were distributed the rest were saying that it was late and all rushing home. Miao and i were like hey let's take one more time and Miao actually agreed :X so that's where the major shit begin while we were taking pic there is a bunch of freaking kiddo at the side of another machine playing , at first i thought they just accidentally throw the bottle cap and hit my skirt so it was still not so bad we continue decorating the pic etc ,, the kiddo outside the machine threw in the 2nd time the bottle cap so i thought urgh they were playful accidents again well *shugs* continue drawing .. Finally last staw came one of the fking kiddo just threw in the whole bottle into the machine commenting hey stupid bitch u wear until like that just to take neo print , the 2 cute cute one take what neo print ?

LAST STRAW F*** u kiddo , i finish deco i threw the pen i went out SCREAM at them ^.^

yes u never read it wrong i went out to scream at them _#*#%&)@#(#_@$

all those 3 words 4 words 5 words hokkien language because in the first place they did that to me too. if they dare to do anything to be i can't think any more at that moment i would have just bash them up i seriously do not care who the f*** are u . Do not provoke me in the first place, because Joy is not in a good mood.

Freaking early in the morning 4 plus abt 5

wake up just to pack the cosmatic items ,

Lolita items for later use in the end the person

who requested me to help him for make up

flew me airplane damn u -.-

before i went home i was being pushed by mad woman at work place

manager saw wtf was going on i do not know if she did talk to her

one day when it is my last straw i will throw my apron

tell this in her face DAMN u fucker u think this job very nice ah

and will not report to work any more hack if they want to deduct my money

because i had it enough so epic 3 things happen in a row yea.

kiddo's case was the most furious things that ever happen so far.