The world came to an end

I didn't went to visit my cousin, suppose to visit her but the rain getting heavier. She left the world today on the 28/12/06 to heaven, everything just seems yesterday .. she was fine the other day and then the next day she is sick and next is she is gone .. T.T

why does God want to take her away so early? why dosen't any healing send to her? why?
i think i begin to hate God for taking her away, she is still so young and she just passed her 15th birthdate.

i think i am a very bad cousin to her, i wasn't able to visit her most of the time and i think i sucks too.

Will there be mirical?

i dun know seems to me tat life is no longer important, death just come easily and even sickness.
i am going to visit one of my cousin in kk later .. i dun know how long but i really hope tat she can have the strength to carry on. i pray in my heart tat this won't be the last christmas tat she is spending on the earth ..

this year before 2006 ends, my only wish is tat she can get well soon and live far more den 2006
why must God take her away in such a early age? can He not take her away from us?
ever since she was born it just seems like yesterday .. a baby to a teenager.. and things just turn out to be like tat .. i am very sad .. i dun want to lose anyone i know any more.

Friends if u are reading this page.. pls cherish the ppl around u before u start to regret, it will be too late by the time u know how to cherish .. that person is either gone or no longer beside u.

A busy day

I had a busy day at work, i thought today would be a doomed due to the crowd .. etc etc
lol something tat is so unexpected .. heh heh .. no ppl today wor.. but luckily all the eggs were solded heh heh. sigh tomorrow will be another hell day "Christmas" as another Ph ..
blehx .. good thing is i am partnering aunty tomorrow morning ... :P

haix

Yesterday while i was playing games.. a friend of mine msn me asked me.. hey how's life as usual i told him life sux.. and all those bad things just come to my mind suddenly i juz feel like cutting myself up again .. i dun know why but i am depressed .. sigh I hope tat these feeling will just go away ..

There was once this gal who fall madly in love with some one but tat some one dosen't appriciate her.. in the end the gal is just so sad...

a surprised evening

hmm why surprised? dunnoe wor , was playing my damn game as usual.. den suddenly in the noon jill called me and ask me out during evening.. says tat christopher wants to meet us lol..
i think hor i never expect christopher to be a teacher after all :o he went back to old secondary school to teach :o sigh ppl does change lol..

anyway lifes back to hell the damn fucker is back to work sigh.. i have to see how she scold me tomorrow .. suddenly call me ask me to do afternoon shift... )_#(%)$#%

another shocking news

Today after work i was like calling up a old friend of mine, catching up wif him and to my horror
He is wif another friend of mine together! :o :o ! lol maybe not horror lol heh heh
ever since last time i was asking A abt B both gave me negative ans .. they are not positive abt each other .. and now they ended up together lol..

something happened today .. knn i top up another 10 bucks.. because of shortage..
why am i always toping up constantly? -.-lll

_#%)*_#%#!_%$

Bias Bias Bias!

Why muz the damn fucking super be so damn fucking bias? when the other shift cashier says she dun know how to key in the promo thing and so when we exchange shift she pass me the money and ask me to key in promo for her after i changed my shift wif her i did key in everything tat i am suppose to do. At the end of the day i have shortage of 4 bucks, tat fucker ask me to top it up dun she know tat toping up the sales from shortage will cause me to be charged? damn her and wat's worst most of the time even it's shortage of 2 bucks she would wants me to top up the remaning of 1 buck if not she will give me tat kinda fucking look.

aww i wonder if it's gal A will she do tat no lor coz gal A is malaysian and she will help her
juz tat i am a damn pathatic fucking alien no one wants to care or bother with. All of them are baddies and they suck. BIAS why muz they be so damn fucking BIAS?! fuck them

Surprised morning call~~~

tmd today wake up thought sunday go work should be no other den half an hr later den usual time .. den in the end.. +#%*_+_$#%)@#$% morning call from my damn freaking supervisor ...
aww she say oh she forgot to tell me tat today openng shift is at 7 am muz reach instead of 7.30am reach there .. -.-lll i was like lol? u kidding or wat nvm so i was damn lucky to get a cab early in the morning 6.55 alright reach there abt 7 - 7.05 great she punched the card for me..
during work .. hey tat's wat i hate abt her .. tmd she blur liao den come infront mess up my counter .. in the end morning sales is only 900 plus bucks.. kao if i were her .. dun care le!
i would juz take all the order .. collect all the money den make eggs abt 5 tubs at 1 shot ..

haix i dun know wat to say abt her la.. now tat she missed out on most of the eggs sale..
den manager will start to say it's me i make the sales go down de -.-llll
help!~ can some one help me to get out of this damn freaking working place? even during sleep time i can dream of tat horrible terrible vegetable witch!
and i start to talk during my sleep .. wat do u think?~ + she is a regular back stabber ..
just to help her damn malaysia gal ~~ -.-llll

another day~

Yesterday went out wif my work mate, to orchard to see the christmas lighting and at the same time to see other outlet of the company lol. bo liao i know but it's quite fun to go out in a group after work to relax especially after facing those idoits at work will make u go crazy.

here are some of the pics :D
wat's worst ...
TMD they make me wear christmas hat during work #_($#)&*$% so hot loh!

The shocking inside news

Today went out with a colledgue, i manage to find out tat actually my supervisor is a bad person but still i am not convince tat she so bad after all. Some of the facts, according to the gal who told me.. Morning cashier aunty dun even like the other gal A, while she decide to teach me the eggs instead of teaching gal A she taught me the new techniques of eggs. 2. Not everyone , well almost every one hates new supervisor.

Brewer is damn bias, everytime says gal A is good never finds fault with her everytime compliment her. Find fault in me, critisize me and what's worst makes me blur most of the time
in the end says tat i am incapable and i am stupid. Almost all the bad points i have it all.

I feel sad for them for trying hard to get rid of me, the more they try the more i am still remaining there it's because i have made a promise. More over i have more advantages then them, i am not afraid of them but i am starting to hate the damn fucking brewer more and more.


BIAS SHALL NOT TRIUMPHED Fairness shall rule the world

hmm

wow it's been sometime since my last post heh heh anyway, things are going on good
just tat some of the fine details i must pay attention to when ordering stock and cordinate with the bastard uncle. As days goes by, I find tat the supervisor is not so bad after all seems to be like she is begining to accept me. Oh well, heard from other colledgues tat there's a pet in the company not really pet but it's favouritism and biasness ya? The bastard brewer is so bias everytime keep on saying tat how good the pet is while how bad i fair in my performance during work -.-lll if she is good i wouldn't be there le. tmd.. she learn counter before but fail to master the skills and still dare to praise her tat she is good blah blah blah. I know why it's because i am ugly ya? -.- but dun nid to do tat to me ma~~~ BASTARD!

Eh~ bz bz bz

Wah why today so bz de ah~ lol.. i dun mind heh heh at least today i still able to cope at work today sigh cannot sleep so early later cannot tahan tomorrow fall asleep during work.

i am happy today because 1. my cousin is feeling better plus there are progress in everything
2. I gain improvment in my audition game today
3. i can see phamton of the opera at esplanade someday in march wif Jill

xD so i am happy loh :D

A mth in hell~

okay now i suffer in hell for 1 mth .. it's time to stop having nightmares, nothing can scare me now :P well i can say hor, tat bitch is ok lah not so good not too bad either. Kept critizing me infront of all the workmate tat oh i am not serious abt my work, since manager have already promoting me to the higher position (supervisor) and yet i am still not serious enough.

After tat she say it's been a mth i must learn how to do my job well, if i can't get my things done in the way she want then i will be doomed. She dun know how to tell my manager abt my progress. I told her fine, if u think tat i cannot take tat position go ahead and tell manager tat
i am bad performer. I cannot take the position he offer me and i can just happily stay as a cashier, punch my freaking card and happily go home. Tat's what i told her yesterday, guess wat today is her off day again never in a week i feel so relax and confident in my work before.

I guess ever since i step into the new outlet, i have nightmare till now
almost every day abt being scolded by her.

aww!

Another Beginning of the week to work went to visit my cousin at hospital last week
she is suffering from cancer :-( but i hope that she will recover soon and go out with my elder cousin and me. To grow stronger and happier, able to go clubbing with us one day tat is my only wish.

To me i dun wish to see someone who i know since childhood to leave me, it's sad when u know her from a baby till a young lady now. Why would God allow a 15 yr old young lady to suffer this kind of pain?

There is nothing much we can do except to pray for miracle for her

Wat a bad surprise~

*CRYS* loudly **

End of my normal crew lifespan ... +#(%T+#@_%( why wana promote me ! wth ..
why ?! i am so stress.. new responsiblities .. new shits.. new challenge ...
tmd.. why is it tat it's always me?!

T.T

super happy fun time morning :P

Today the morning super, is not in weee she went for meeting :D and so every one is kinda more relaxed without her presence hee hee. Any way after she left for abt 15 mins later Bishan Boss came. I was so xsurprised by his appearance at funan :o omg..
i think he is going for meeting if not why he wear until so formal lol..

anyway today's sale is not bad oh by the way I got my pay today :)i am so happy

End of a suffering morning -

Yesterday reach home at 9 pm.. tmd my father fighting with me a bath room ..
End up he went to use the bathroom first, so i cannot use have to wait for him in the end guess wat .. #_)%*#_)%#*_%!@ he is using the phone in the bath room and bathe for 1 hr )#(*%_#@)%* as a result i have to suffer a tough morning due to lack of sleep )_+#*%_+#)%*_+# stupid sia .. and wat's more i talked abt the nightmare with my friend on msn he said .. nvm coz "he" is a human and he is damn bz with games oh well, ya true. Dun nid to msg me over msn coz i am nobody to him ha ha why am i so stupid? waiting for something tat won't come true trying to dream of something tat is impossible. worst still trying to wait for someone who dun even know tat i am waiting for him.

Begining of another bad day~

I had another nitemare again .. :( i am sad in fact i dream abt him, thou i had never see him before. I just feel so much ... in my dream, I dreamt tat he came and find me at the same time he know some other gals and even had a gf.

But i am surprised tat my reaction was oh isit ? I know tat gal is ur gf I wish u all the best but feeling heart ache and walk away. Could it be tat in reality he already have a gf? maybe who knows ...

Another Day passed ~

Today suffer for another day .. well.. I am the runner for the day sigh, Tat bloody bitch just wouldn't let me touch the counter at all ..
>.< BITCH!!! just know how to say tat i am slow .. how abt her? she is equally as slow as me ... in my mind i am always thinking of going back to Bishan .. but i know in my heart tat i dun think i even have a chance of going back any more. The next worst thing i know is to change job i dun think i will even have bonus for this yr.

Sigh .. see how ba ..

Things get better

By now things have gotten better during work, ^^ things start to go on smoothly compare to day 1 haix.. sometimes after i blog so much in my own blog i wonder who da hell would actually read wat the hell i blog inside here :P

anyway, there are ppl who are bad there in the new branch well bad as in they can phone and tell manager tat u are slow .. etc etc .. ha ha anyway who cares? if they think tat i cannot make it den pls throw me fire me out of the company.. :P

Tomorrow is the dinner event .. by right i am looking forward to it but den .. TOmorrow i am on fucking morning shift !!!! jiu ming ah!!! i dun know if i can wake up a not i hate working during morning nehx!

>.<

First day of closing ~

Well i am very bz haix, lazy, and tired! lol after i learn opening i have to learn closing. Now this particular supervisor is soooo cute u know why? coz when she put up the memo.. she dun know a damn single thing for the memo .. ha ha ..
the memo writes .. " to manager and supervisor" ....

and the head manager ask her to put up the A4 size memo for customer to see should be the other copy.. "dear customer, blah blah"
I dun know wat to say abt her i told her tat's the wrong paper she seems not to be bother with me .. diao~ nvm let's see wat happen norx. Told her le wrong copy she wouldn't listen :P

wow after closing it's 9 pm so early .. ^^

Movie Review ~ DOA Dead or Alive

I was pretty nervous for the first sunday at funan it is quite free. I was expecting a crowd but in the end seems to be like lesser crowd for today :o

I went to catch a movie with Jill Yesterday during holiday at saturday was expecting to watch "the Gurdian" but in the end we didn't manage to catch tat movie but instead we watched "DOA" Dead or Alive :o pretty cool movie most of the time with those pretty babes with hot bodies but one of my favourite is "katsumi" The Japanese princess of a particular clan she is so beautiful with brown long hair and hazel colour eyes ^^ a typical japanese looking gal.

Katsumi went to DOA island to look for her missing brother which most of the ppl told her tat her brother was dead 4 yrs ago during a fight at DOA island. She refused to believe the Clan and decided to leave the castle, creating alot of problems for herself once she leave the castle. The clan will kill her if she leaves the castle on her own.

Now this DOA island have more den it meets the eye, the island host Donovan is a bad guy who trys to get fighters to go to the top and the final 4 remaining ppl in the group end up being tied up and download their fighting style into the computer and send out to the various fighters to make them stronger.

While during all these Katsumi saw her Brother alive . . . .

New discovery

I discovered something else today after work a aunty told me tat the supervisor dun know english de :o ok tat explains why when i order "BS" she dun understand instead of asking me to say out the full word "butter sugar" lousy super .. >.<
nvm since she want me to do her style let it be but she just wouldn't teach me how nia nvm ^^ i use my own method insted and so i wrote on the pieace of receipt "LS"
and she frown at me again saying tat i wrote in english .. kao wat u want? like tat also cannot like this also cannot den? why not u do it urself let me go behind and do toasting isn't it better? :P

nvm i shall try again on sunday .. let's see how

I have already promised Yan Li tat i will try my best at the new outlet i have given her my word and will not go back on wat i promised her so let's see how this bloody bitch do to me

End of another day :o

oh man early in the morning while i was combing hair i discover my hair drop alot :o
_#)%*@_+#% for the past few days i am not eating well tmd.. so sad now i lose hair.
Good thing today someone came down talk to me the head of manager. aww she come down the power so big eh? Ha ha not bad even able to get the bitch to talk to me

Bitch say she thought i know everything -.- tmd.. as if wor if i know everything i wouldn't be here le down here is ur territory ur say i have no say wor i dun know anything wor so she have to teach me la _#@%*@_#% tmd is tat how u treat ppl who know everything? >.<

The head manager say why am i looking so sad? and why am i not smiling like i do in Bishan ? wat makes me so sad suddenly .. i say alot of things .. and i started to cry T.T i dun know la so sad
i told her everything .. haix .. she made me feel better at least she is nice gal.
If she never appear together with my manager today i guess i would be dead long ago le .. ^^

Depression over!

Finally i know why tat bitch is so bitchy le ^^ she just got promoted 2 weeks ago.
Oh so wat? i make sure i find something to demote her to revange for wat the fuck she did to me. Oh she very good in every area eh? thinking tat i am a threat to her eh? dun wana teach me how to make eggs eh?

go fuck off loh +#_%(#@+_%(# as if i cannot make it without u.
Go to hell man BITCH !

Depression

I am into deep depression, I am crying after every day's work Today is my 2nd day
I didn't eat much for the past 2 days and today from morning till now i haven eaten anything yet. I am just too sad to eat anything, i dun know why.. But i just feel like dying, I feel so miserable. Only if He can msg me on msn to encourage me for just this once, i really feel very miserable. I dun know why, i really feel like dying, taking panadol with coke with alot of panadol..
falling into deep sleep and not to wake up again i feel so miserable.
it's just because of jin feng tat bloody bitch.
i hate her far worst den Jenny, They are about the same lah. Why? they are all so proud of themself their english is equally bad.

I hate Jin feng, she is such a bloody bitch as if she is only the best the rest of the ppl are inferior to her. Pls la sweet she talk to those caucasion pronouse as "shit" Try as "tray"
-.- if ur english is bad dun fight with me to talk to a caucasion pls, they will think tat u are asking them to eat shit ^^

First sucky day at work (new branch)

Wat the fuck man, thought new place new beginning first of all i am damn fucking wrong i went and i cried there. I feel so sad, first of all the damn fucking supervisor dun care abt you. As if i know where are all the things suppose to put and do wat -.- FUCKER loh dun bully ppl until this kinda extend lah we are all working in the same company u should take care of newbie from other branch transfer de. damn it

After lunch, she took out a pieace of sales form and put behind the table after tat when it's 1 o clock i am done with my things and next thing is to count my money as usual God damn knows wat's she's thinking fuck sia she just ignore me when i dun know wat to do with the God forsaken money. As if i know put where she ignore me >.<
I swear after bonus i am not going to stay in tat fucking company, come on loh from the way i have the experiance i will not lose out to u loh. Dun nid to treat me like tat.

Today's last day

Today's the last day at bishan, i tried to sleep but i juz can't sleep
tomorrow will be a new beginning for me. I should be happy but instead when i try to sleep when i close my eyes i just cannot forget abt the image abt bishan. Everything will be changed .. from this moment .. i just can't help it but to feel sad, i dun know why but i just cannot remember bull dog's face. Now he is no longer the man tat i hate, THe man tat i really hate now is CLIVE -.-lll he is really an arse hole. When ppl are working he says tat u are not working not doing anything at all

Now everything is over, my adventure at funan shall begins. I will visit my nai ma some day to update her more . Today when i see Kenneth (causeway) boss i feel tat he is having a bad time i guess from the look from his face. All i can say is
who ask them to be so stingy.. if he hasn't been so stingy, his business wouldn't fail until so badly.

Looking forward to the dinner :P:P

Relationship issue

oh my gut, tomorrow is my last day in Bishan. haix i will miss the charcoal there ~ lol. The bloody next day, morning shift haix.

Why is it tat everyone around me keep on telling me abt bgr things? is BGR so important? i dun really think so, i used to think tat having a bf is good. Until "he" changed my thinking, Bf is = trash
they know nothing abt u, they have no initiave abt everything worst of all
they dun care u and shower u wif all the attention u want. It's sad tat most of the time when u give u dun get wat u want, when u keep on giving ppl take u for granted.
Even some of my friends takes me for granted, as if i owe them things. I feel so hurt, i think i dun wana trust anyone ever again. Even as "he" is online at msn, he dosen't even msg me at all the last time tat we chat on msn is abt 1/2 mth ago.
Does he still care ? i dun think so, each time i see "his" name on msn each time i sigh. I dun think he care i herby pronouse tat my heart for "him" is dead, i dun wana show anymore care/concern anymore. Does "he" judge me by looks or does he judge me by my heart? or juz playing wif me on msn treating me as a normal friend. No idea,
i have really no idea wat the hell is it all about. Sometimes juz treat me so cold, sometimes juz talk to me so much.

I think we have communication problem, he no longer talks to me as much as before.
I am sad to even think abt it now a days i dun even talk abt him to my gal pal, i told my best friend wat ever happens to him i dun wana care anymore coz i have been "frozen" for so long kept in the fridge.

Enough of him, *sigh* i cannot wear the damn dress for dinner .. i think i have to work very hard to fit into the dress .. which is beri hard leh .. how huh?
any ideas tat i can lose weight beri fast? lol..

Last 2nd day

well today is my last 2nd day working in Bishan, sigh .. alot of things happen there.
Nothing much for me to remember there .. and i think i dun wana remember anything there
:P anyway it's a new beginning from monday onwards no more afternoon lazy me for next week
it's totally morning shift wor :S:S:S awww~
i feel like killing my boss for putting me in morning shift lol juz joking ahaha, i juz realise tat i cannot function in the morning my bed is always calling me ~ ~

heh heh, bad news i juz discover tat i have dry eye :o! omg.. i think i am going to die soon :S
alot of things happening to my body >.< wth ..

Dry eye symptons

- ur eyes have tears more den normal
- ur eyes sees some black flying objects
- ur eyes have a "sand" grain feeling
and mostly ur eyes is itchy irritatable

>.<

i talk alot with my supervisor today, i am hoping to build a better relationship with her
lol she kept saying as if i am older den her LOL coz i know alot of things when some ppl dun even wana go through hygiene course while i am dying to go through that class lol.. and already i have some basic knowledge of food hygiene. Somemore i told her abt same food difference appearance different effect and different taste, why is it tat the same popiah different effect on the customers? There is a popiah stall in bishan, used to be there in the hawker center due to the overwhealming business queues. The stall owner decided not to rent the space to the uncle so the uncle went to the next place to sell popiah juz beside the hawker centre , there's Ah Mei's Kaya toast shop and the queue went there. While over at the stall owner side no one's queueing
why? it's in the food, the magic is all inside tat popiah.
she was so surprised by wat i said lol.. i hope tat when i go over to the other branch ppl would not be like the same current batch .. back stabbing ppl
:D

The wake of a shocking morning :o

By right, by now i should be sleeping in my bed like pig zzZZzz i was woken up by the voices of my parents. My dad is sick :o, he was shivering and unable to stand still zZZZzzzz
so he had to called up his boss to tell him tat he had to MC . I am shocked coz dad seldom gets sick, guess age does play a part of it and the next thing is fog.

Three more days to part wif current work place, sigh nothing for me to remember there
it's juz like him. There is nothing more for me to remember him, some one whom i like very much but i juz can't get him lol.. i am juz so naive. LOL thinking back all those things tat i have done i feel so silly ^^ Especially those ppl who complain me i wana thank them for
making me a better person making me to smarter the way i am now. Improving my service,
helping me to understand them more. In the area of wat the hell they are thinking lol, now i know they wana spend small amount of money but yet expect to be served like restaurant standard. heh heh service line is not ez

This is the final week~!

This is the final week i will be spending at the work place which i spend there for 2 yrs +
when this place is officially 3 yrs old i will be leaving to another outlet. Knowing new ppl,
ppl tat i dun know. haix anyway today Peggy cried until very hard, i dun know wat to say to her
but she juz kept crying saying tat everyone is leaving her behind. Well sad to say i am the only one tat is not sad to go out of this outlet because most of the time things tat are unhappy juz happen there .. complains etc etc, arguments wif the others but usually i am the one lose dun know why .. they says i am unreasonable blah blah .. so when they cry i won't cry i would be juz too happy to get out of tat place. I told peggy, time to move on and out of the comfort zone and into the danger zone. I know in my heart tat i have to grow more learn more things from other ppl this can be another chance of learning instead of staying there to rot and not bearing any fruit of progress.

Time to move on , to the fast and furious zone ^^