Xmas eve

Went out with Vader yesterday, omg he paid for the meal .. He say maybe we should hang out more lol I was saying one day, I want to go bendeemer rd there and get the super spicy chicken wings lol he said next time ask him along lol ... Walking ard in orchard new possession ! Loli parasol in fact this mth I am like broke ? Lol but never the less the sized operation of black alice really impacted me. Hence I bought another parasol and bonnet in remembrance of b.a ... I had a very happy Xmas eve with Vader. Lol one more thing abt him he only remember my name as meow tan lol !!! Wth ~~~

Sunshine or rain lives moves on..

Past few days was raining, sometimes sunny sometimes keep raining .. I had Been thinking for this past few days... And had msg elk as well asking him to help me to claim back my ayu disc as I really don't wish to see his face anymore. Things that are related to him I do not wish to know as well because I'm really really heart broken.
Incident till now he hasn't even send a SMS/ pm / call nothing .. If he really genuinely say that he is my friend and I think too much. Moreover he said it on kuro's wall that it wasn't his fault and on his own wall he wrote if ppl know him well enough he doesn't give ppl false hopes. Ya ya because of my foolishness happy ? I am stupid enough to hang out with u all this times, worry constantly abt u. All I get was a fling, ya w/o any corner stone I am sure u are able to flirt as much as u like. For now wish you all the best and I won't want to keep any memory of u anymore gona delete u away from my brain. Lives moves on, I know u are god damn selfish u won't care abt ppl ard u. U will only care abt urself. Nothing abt urself eh I dun need this kind of friend.

Fail to die ~ I am still awake

Went home drink another 5 bottle of gaba nite and still awake .. Played audition .. Still not happy at all. Yea no one say it is his fault anyway not his fault too .. It is just that he is too selfish. He never think abt me he never care at all I die my problem that's all. Suddenly I realized man is so scary and so selfish ... They dun care how u feel ... They just indulged the attention u gave them endlessly .. If there is someone able to reformat my brain ~ pls reformat it now .. I don't want to remember anything abt him

It just hurts so much

I went home took 5 bottle of sleeping potion, and what ? I am still here writing nonsense why am I still here yea I know he doesn't care at all he won't care heart really ache.

Never forget today ..

Just abt to clarify some stuff guess what don't even need to ask he just bring his gf there and ask me go where tmd win lor no nid to ask. Epic win dun bother to ask dun want to talk to him and I won't mag him anymore

First time in history

First time wear Loli at home dropping tears. I feel emotionally unstable despite I am going to a friend's wedding. Dunnoe even Loli for now doesnt make me happy anymore. Anyway I should have known it earlier, he calls me because he is bored. Probably ppl has new ppl to talk to hang out with ler ... Damn sad. Tmd make up smudged le T.T

haiz

when it is suppose to be a beautiful event and it ended up a shit event ?
just why am i trying so hard, I ended up crying that night.
a simple wish to make everyone happy, B day girl happy but
i was so damn wrong.. it ended up in qurrals. .. . .

everything just turn into dust now.

Sigh ~